Elizabeth's Writing Ministry

Hello friends and family! I am looking for partners to give advice, prayer, and/or donations for the next year and a half as I embark on a wild journey I never imagined I would take. I am a follower of Christ and feel deeply compelled to start a ministry of helping women out of the cruel lifestyle of the sex industry (nude modeling, dancing at clubs, pornography, web-camming and prostitution). My plan for now is to share my story by writing a book to bring others who can relate into the arms of Jesus. I've been through so much in my short years of being on this Earth, and I feel the reason for all of my suffering was so I could help other women going through what I've been through.

  Growing up I was neglected and abused, it wasn't a happy (or safe) childhood for the majority of my youth. It was hard to make friends and maintain relationships as I matured. I found validation and love where I could find it in this crazy world; the world said I had looks so I used them to make money while perniciously keeping fueled by toxic relationships and chemicals. I had been sexually abused so with vengeance and malice I sought out ways to abuse men's hearts, propelled to hell by my own festering hatred. My lifestyle was so financially rewarding I complacently saw it as success. I modeled for Playboy shamelessly, felt pride with the distorted image of success. The control I thought I had finally achieved in this world spiraled out of control and drove me away from my family and landed me two years ago robbed and broken on the streets of Vegas with nothing but the clothes on my back and my vacant heart. A man took me in and kept me in a windowless shack for four months, I was on drugs I don't know the names for and was used for sex. There are so many other women trapped in that world who can relate to how terrifying it was, how alone and lost I felt, how badly I wanted my life to end... The only reason I didn't commit suicide was because of my brother Danny who took his own life at age 15 and I know what it's like to still be here when someone you love willingly leaves.

  I escaped one morning with a stolen cell phone and my memory of an old friend's email address back in Santa Clara, California who bought me a plane ticket and let me have a room in his house. It took me four months to detox, shouting at the voices in my head, wanting desperately to die. I then moved in with a girlfriend back in Sacramento who helped me back to health and pointed me to Jesus. Before that I was a proud Agnostic, open to all things (except, of course, Jesus) and after calling on Him I've found peace and felicity, the ability to forgive and truly care about and love other people. He blessed me with a kind, patient and understanding husband who accepts me as I am and encourages me to grow, He continues to bless me every day even though I don't deserve it. To imagine finding peace after so much chaos, joy after so much pain, love after so much hate... God of the universe is real and readily available to all who call upon His name. I pray others won't have to suffer as I've suffered before finding the freedom of the truth that is in Jesus Christ.

  My story continues now on the border of Alabama and Georgia with my Army husband and three awesome dogs. I'm still cleaning up the mess of my past, I aquired three DUI's when I was still leading that catastrophic lifestyle, I've served my time but I still have fines to pay and I'm not allowed to drive until September of 2017. I currently work as a waitress at Applebee's most days of the week, my husband drives me to work shortly after he gets home from his job on Fort Benning. I feel my great purpose in life is to pour my heart into sharing my story with other women. Sharing the details of my life in person absolutely terrifies me, every time I try to give a testimony I become speechless. The only way I am truly able to express myself is through writing. I've started a blog to practice and have open discussion with others who can relate and give feedback as I write my book, please join me with your thoughts and comments as I'm eager to hear what you think! I'm at www.ElizabethGudel.Wordpress.com .

  Every one has a different gift and way of learning and teaching, I know personally someone's story can change a person's life. I have yet to find a true story that is as dark as mine and lead others to Christ. I wish I had someone who related to that life and pointed me to Jesus long ago, but I deeply feel now my suffering was for His glory and to share with others the truth and freedom that is found in Jesus Christ alone. I'm not sure how long it will take me to share my story by writing this book, I figure I can have it done within a year to a year and a half, I need about $1,000 a month to spend my time focused on writing. I'm not sure if you are in a position to help monthly or make automatic payments, but every donation is truly a blessing and encouragement for me to boldly share my story and the gospel with the lost sheep still trapped in the industry. I will also be spending these funds on a new computer and Microsoft Word software to get started, and also for a literary agent. I need prayer as well, prayer most of all. Please pray for me as I go through the pain of remembering my past, please pray I will have courage and strength to speak out and abide in Him, and please pray for God's protection over me during this time of learning and opening my heart. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story, any donation, prayer, and advice on my blog is much appreciated! 
May God place you within His perfect will and fill your life with joy, freedom, peace, and an abundance of love!