Fat Guy in a Little Coat

377 pounds. BMI of 50.3. 166 pounds of fat. These are the numbers I have looked at for years now. In a way (from the outside) they tell a story of someone whom has given up. From the inside, they are a blemish on the efforts of one man to trying to take back his life. Weight Watchers, fitness apps, diet, exercise, P90x, juicing, fasting, walking, and prayer have all failed to assist me in seeing any success. My lab work and medical doctor does not see any metabolic issue that would hinder this process. So where does that leave me? Medifast. The counseling and meals associated with the Medifast program may help me in my desire to be, well, desirable. To achieve a state of overall healthiness that will ensure a long and happy life.

Nevertheless, this is the real world and things cost money. The average cost of Medifast is around $5,000 a year. With their claims of a 1-2 pound weight loss every week, it means a two-year commitment to achieve my goal. For those of you playing the home game that is $10,000.

So why am I asking for help? I need it. For the first time in my life, I am realizing that I am not in control. My actions and attitude on life and those around me have essentially destroyed me. I am hoping to make a change in my life that will ripple through everything I do.

If you have a spare buck or two (or five) lying around that would be fabulous, if you cannot or will not I understand that too. It is hard for some to understand the addiction to food. Unless you have truly struggled with it, I do not expect you to understand what this is about. However, understand that the first step in recovery is knowing there is a problem.

I have a problem.