Emily needs braces

Went to the orthodontist today in high hopes that I could just get a nifty spring retainer to get my teeth back to the lovely shape! Nope. I get there and they slap a paper in my face with 3,500 bucks on it saying "you need braces again" after getting them removed 4 years ago. And this time, they are glueing a retainer to my teeth. I thought "well...okay.." I didn't want braces again but I'd rather make those work than my current state. Now, people tell me the crookedness wasn't noticable. But when I opened my mouth, there said "oh yeah, there it is." and I notice it too. Everyday. It killed my confidence. I spend a least 10-20 minutes a day looking in the mirror pressing on my teeth hoping they would just shift back. It's mainly all four of my front teeth. And now my bottom teeth are crowded. Guys.. I'm beginning to slur my S's. THIS IS NOT OKAY.
"But Emily, you should have worn your retainer" I know. I got my braces off when I was pregnant. After the little one was born, I lost my retainer and just had too much going on to go back in and pay for another one. Life was insanely busy and I let it be. 

If you can't help me, I understand! I don't want to ask for moneyyyy. I had to think about it but I just won't be able to get them if I don't. I have too much that I'm paying for. Dx Don't hate me. Thanks for the help! <3