Funeral Fund for Megan Littlejohn
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Megan was my little sister. We weathered everything together growing up and were best friends, fellow keepers-of-secrets, and each others' sidekick. I lost all of that this week and just want to say goodbye, please help me do that.
My sister had demons that she battled with daily as a result of much trauma - and while some of us have the means to escape our reality with a move or a vacation, she did not. Very early on she started using substances and she continued fighting that urge all the way until this week.
She wanted sobriety so much and just didn't know how to get there. When she hit a low last year she voluntraily went into rehab and worked the program with everyone else. She completed the program last Thursday and we spent a few days together with my parents; it was good to be back home with her and them laughing, crying, talking, and living.
Addiction science tells us that the toughest times, the highest risk of relapse, comes after you get out of a highly structured environment like prison, or rehab. In the early morning of Tuesday, March 24th, Megan's demons caught up with her and took control once again. This is a very sad time for all of us and one that I would not wish on anyone.
Please help me say goodbye to Megan, my little sister, who fought long and hard to overcome her pain and live life the way she wanted to. Any help you can offer is greatly appreciated and will go towards funeral costs and treatment bills.
In her own words (taken from facebook):
"So, some of you know, but most don't... and it is time that I step out of darkness and hiding and make an admission to all of my friends and family. I have been battling substance abuse and addiction since I was 14 years old. 17 years of my life. There have been times of sobriety, and there have been times of debilitating dependency that have put every single relationship in my life through the wringer. Up until now, it has been a horribly heavy burden that my family and partner have carried the weight of, because I was so insistent on secrecy. It is unfair of me to ask that they not discuss it, vent to anyone, or seek guidance of their own, because it has been just as harmful to them as it has been to me... if not more. I have at every point in the past said I was going to stop, "This is the last time..." every addict's famous line. And it would seem to be... until the shit hit the fan once again, and I would run from my own demons, my own problems, and the cycle continued. Someone told me recently, "There is NO CHANGE without CHANGE"... exactly. So my first change is this- I will no longer hide behind a facade, and keep this big dark secret, and ask that my family and partner do the same. I have to do away with that selfishness, and I feel like admitting it to the whole world is the first and best way to lift the burden. I'm doing what I have to do for the people I love, and I accept any cost of that process. It's time for them to stop being the ones to pay the cost for me. It's time for the pain to stop for everyone involved in this.
I want sobriety for the rest of my life, for myself, for my family, for my friends, for my partner... and I don't want to hide behind anonymity, not that keeping it anonymous is bad, it just didn't work for me. I love all of you guys, and for those that have stood by me through all of the bullshit over the years that I have thrown at them, I'm sorry. And thank you for not giving up on me. You'll never know how much it truly means to me. "
We will always love you so VERY much. I miss you more than words can say.
--Your big brother
My sister had demons that she battled with daily as a result of much trauma - and while some of us have the means to escape our reality with a move or a vacation, she did not. Very early on she started using substances and she continued fighting that urge all the way until this week.
She wanted sobriety so much and just didn't know how to get there. When she hit a low last year she voluntraily went into rehab and worked the program with everyone else. She completed the program last Thursday and we spent a few days together with my parents; it was good to be back home with her and them laughing, crying, talking, and living.
Addiction science tells us that the toughest times, the highest risk of relapse, comes after you get out of a highly structured environment like prison, or rehab. In the early morning of Tuesday, March 24th, Megan's demons caught up with her and took control once again. This is a very sad time for all of us and one that I would not wish on anyone.
Please help me say goodbye to Megan, my little sister, who fought long and hard to overcome her pain and live life the way she wanted to. Any help you can offer is greatly appreciated and will go towards funeral costs and treatment bills.
In her own words (taken from facebook):
"So, some of you know, but most don't... and it is time that I step out of darkness and hiding and make an admission to all of my friends and family. I have been battling substance abuse and addiction since I was 14 years old. 17 years of my life. There have been times of sobriety, and there have been times of debilitating dependency that have put every single relationship in my life through the wringer. Up until now, it has been a horribly heavy burden that my family and partner have carried the weight of, because I was so insistent on secrecy. It is unfair of me to ask that they not discuss it, vent to anyone, or seek guidance of their own, because it has been just as harmful to them as it has been to me... if not more. I have at every point in the past said I was going to stop, "This is the last time..." every addict's famous line. And it would seem to be... until the shit hit the fan once again, and I would run from my own demons, my own problems, and the cycle continued. Someone told me recently, "There is NO CHANGE without CHANGE"... exactly. So my first change is this- I will no longer hide behind a facade, and keep this big dark secret, and ask that my family and partner do the same. I have to do away with that selfishness, and I feel like admitting it to the whole world is the first and best way to lift the burden. I'm doing what I have to do for the people I love, and I accept any cost of that process. It's time for them to stop being the ones to pay the cost for me. It's time for the pain to stop for everyone involved in this.
I want sobriety for the rest of my life, for myself, for my family, for my friends, for my partner... and I don't want to hide behind anonymity, not that keeping it anonymous is bad, it just didn't work for me. I love all of you guys, and for those that have stood by me through all of the bullshit over the years that I have thrown at them, I'm sorry. And thank you for not giving up on me. You'll never know how much it truly means to me. "
We will always love you so VERY much. I miss you more than words can say.
--Your big brother
Organizador
Yeshua Petitjean
Organizador
Beaufort, SC