Attempted murder survivor is seeking for help

It's so unpredictable how your life can become a total hell in a moment... Unfortunately this is exactly what happened to me.

Everything started with COVID-19 pandemic. I lost my business, became not able to pay rent, car lease, car insurance, other bills or simply buy food. I had to put myself in a nightmare with crazy credit car debts, unpaid bills, sleepless nights, permanent stress and inability to get help from anybody since I'm all alone in this country.

At the same time with all this struggle I tried to help someone I knew from years ago, someone who reached out to me, someone who had no place to go, nothing to eat and...  very serious alcohol addiction. I took this person to my rental unit, gave her food, gave her my clothes, gave her everything she needed (getting out of my credit card limits), tried to be a friend, a psychologist, a family, a supporter... and all I've got in return is a tiny chance for survival after being stabbed multiple times all over my body, being delivered to ER with an immediate need of massive blood transfusion, two surgeries and suturing of my wounds (abdomen wound is still open and cannot be sutured because it's too deep). 

This person left me bleeding out and didn't even call 911 so I could at least try to make it. Fortunately I was able to reach my phone, call the emergency and send my lovely mother a goodbye message while waiting for first responders. She's been everything to me and I've been everything to her and all I could think of realizing that I'm probably gonna die is how much pain it's gonna bring to her life. She had the toughest life ever, lost so many people she loved, lost my dad when I was 5 months old and my sister was 4 years old, she had to take care of my grandfather for years after his stroke before he died and for another few years of my grandmother after her disability before she died in 2019. Only that gave me strength to not close my eyes, to go all the way knowing that there's no place for another death in my family right now.

I spent over two weeks in Presbyterian Hospital of New York fighting for my life altogether with very kind and sweet people (doctors, nurses and others) and I will never have enough words to express how thankful I am for giving me an opportunity to continue my way in this world.

I'll have months of recovery process, emotional breakdowns, search for a hope that the world is not such a scary place and a hope that things like these will never happen to me again. I hope God gave me this chance to show my kindness, to help people, to do good things but right now I'm in need for help myself and I believe there's a lot of angels, generous human beings who could open their souls and help me at this tough time.

Any donation will be highly appreciated, I'll pray to God for everyone who didn't turn their back on me. I believe we're strong all together and your help will let me cover some of my bills and will give me a chance to recover.

Many of you probably saw my story in the newspapers, watched on TV, heard from friends or neighbors but if you didn't you can use this link toread one of many articles of what happened that were written by NYC reporters: https://www.nydailynews.com/coronavirus/ny-coronavirus-victim-roommate-booze-stabbing-20200504-frmjkpkgrrgqvlvvasih4olpfm-story.html

I hope you guys are safe and even if you can't help financially but feel some compassion to me please know I'm already thankful and I feel your support. All my love to you!