Help Heal a Transmasculine Autistic Poindexter

Hello everyone! :3 My whole reality has been turned upside down in the past year and half. After surviving major neurological burnout from a series of exploitative circumstances, so severe I temporary could not access most memories or feel pain properly, I at last learned a truth about myself that clarified a lifetime of unexplained suffering. I am autistic, and I had a lot of needs that weren't being met! I've been on a healing journey since that has come with so much joy as well as grief, and in the process realized that I'm also transgender. While getting my mental health together I've begun transitioning as well. That's not what I'm crowdfunding for, however. Unfortunately these circumstances fractured my already shaky bonds with unsupportive family, and given the sociopolitical and economic climate I have been desperately struggling to survive while regaining functionality and relearning myself.

I'm not sure I'll ever know what I did to deserve this hardship and the cruelty I endured at the hands of loved ones. I did everything I was "supposed to" while also attempting to follow my dreams and passion for activism. I was an honors student, I worked abroad to expand my horizons, I was a high performer at work, and yet nothing I ever did seemed to satisfy the world around me. I've been ground into a pulp and I'm doing my very best to hang on for myself, my furbabies, and my found family. My last job was on a university campus that has let out for the summer, and I've been relying on DoorDash for income while searching for new full time employment that hopefully won't lead to another burnout cycle. Through my most recent job I've discovered a liking for back office administration and am really gunning for remote work. I was invited to schedule an interview yesterday; wish me luck!

At the same time I also chose to move in with found family due to both rising rent that I could not keep with and the need to coregulate with friends to heal. UHaul was not particularly reasonable, and I'm writing this to you with $2 in my bank account, unable to sleep close to 4am. Your help will help me with the following:

Naturally, once I'm stabilized I'll be paying forward my slowly turning fortune to Palestinians in need and various queer friends. Please see my Twitter for efforts in that regard. Any support sent through Venmo where I can get to it in real time will be split in half with this fine Palestinian family. Also, I'll wordsmith a little for you ;) Thank you so much for your time and consideration. Every act of kindness contributes to the evolution of our shared world <3