Help Melissa Honor Jalyn's Memory

My name is Melissa Emery. I'm trying to raise enough funds to cover the cost for my husbands funeral. Jalyn was the best thing in my life. The one who had me, as I had him. I didn't think it would be gone in so short a time. We had 30 very loving, caring, unbelievably beautiful crazy years together. That I, in my ignorance, thought would never end. For some reason, I had the idea, that without us, there was no me. God has a way of letting a person know that.. we are not... in fact... in charge. I'm without the funds to honor him the way I need to. Our son's are giving what they can. Truthfully, I'm moved and overcome with love for them for honoring their dad in so unselfish a way. I know what he wanted and I know how he wanted it done, and I feel such a need to not let him down. Not on this last thing, that I am capable of handling for him. So I'm asking for anyone who believes at all in the saying of "but for the grace of God..." and can empathize to please donate. I'm drowning, in the weight of my sorrow and my state of no income, and I'm stuck in place. I can't see a place forward with him, so I don't want to go forward to a place.. without his smile, his voice, his laugh, his touch, his beautiful, beautiful gaze, and his kiss. That's no place for me, not right now. I'll get there, but don't ask me when. Only God holds my answer, and truthfully, I'm okay with my memories of the way we loved, and lived. Not always in bliss, but I know now, it was always in love. He was truly the best of all he could be. To everyone he called family, friend, even his enemies he wished no will on.. He is my measure of a man. I hope everyone has a chance to love a person as deeply as I have loved and been loved by My Jay...