In memory of Kaotik (Brian Andresen)

Hi my name is Nicole Fifield. To Kaotik, I was affectionately called Cole. K and I were much more than simply best friends, we were mirrored souls. We were family. Knowing Kaotik, he thought of you as family too.

As many of you know, on the evening of June 2nd 2022, Kaotik(Brian) was abruptly taken from our lives in a tragic accident. While no one is ever ready to accept the gravity of a loss this great, I do believe it was a parting in which he would have chosen himself if given the opportunity. Unfortunately, for those that loved him, it was much too soon.

As you are reading this, you are probably thinking about your own connection and friendship with him. He had an amazing way to reach anyone in the exact way they needed. I could write pages about the kindness he bestowed upon many of us without ever asking for anything in return. He gave his time willingly, generously and with so much love. Kaotik embodied love in every way. It was his only true goal in life. To love and be loved. There is no one that crossed his path that left without being seen and appreciated. For those of you that had the privilege of being in his presence, loving him and being loved by him, I am so sorry for your loss. He was one of a kind.

I am writing to you today with the permission of Kaotik's family to ask you for a little help to ease the struggles that his family and children are now facing in the wake of his passing. The emotional grief that comes with a loss this great is overwhelming. There are so many financial needs that arise when in the process of closing all of the chapters in one's life. I'd like to take away a little of that stress for his family in this difficult time so that they can focus on healing and being with each other.

Donations will go towards helping with the costs associated to Kaotik's memorial and resting place, additional grieving support for the family and his three surviving children, temporary financial support so the family can step away from daily responsibilities to be with each other and to help facilitate Kaotik's personal passion projects that he worked so tirelessly to achieve.

Any help you can offer will be received with sincere gratitude and appreciation. If you are unable to donate, I encourage us all to spread kindness and service to others in our lives wherever we can. Kaotik loved helping and supporting those in need. Be sure to look at the beauty in life around us through his eyes which were always filled with love, hope and wonder. What better way to keep his memory alive and his legacy full of love? Thank you for your generosity. Love to you and your families. Carpe Diem

"Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully." - Kahlil Gibran