Help me memorialize my best friend, please

Dylan Thomas Edwards was born May 15th 1993 and committed suicide May 31st 2018. And i feel like i let him. He was my best friend. We used to talk for hours about conspiracy theories with each other. And one day while working together he was telling me one about the government and he said "I'm not gonna let them do that to me. I'm gonna die on my own terms." and i replied to that "That sounds kinda suicidal." And he just kinda looked at me and then walked away. And all the alarm bells were going off in my head. Everything in me was screaming at me to talk to him. Let him know he's not alone. Try to help. Anything. But I didn't. I don't know why i didnt i just didn't. And then 3 days later he killed himself. I have harbored this guilt for 6 years. I can't get over it. I know if i had said something to him or maybe contacted his mother or something, thing's would have been different. I let my best friend kill himself and i have to live with that fact.

I was still a young and nieve teenager back then. 19. I couldn't help with the funeral or anything. I was just shocked and numb and confused and everything happened so fast. 2 years ago I started trying to get help for this guilt. Part of that process is to find my way of getting closure. And that was to memorialize him now since i couldn't do it before. I decided the best way to do this is a memorialization tattoo. That way no matter what happens i will always have this memorial. No matter where i go his memory lives on in my thoughts and so it makes sense to me that his memorial be that way as well.

Dylan had 3 very intense interests. He loved vintage gaming, conspiracy theories, and root beer. I started this memorial tattoo with a Nintendo controller from his favorite Nintendo. This tattoo was intended to be a sleeve from my elbow to my wrist but the artist who did the line work for the centerpiece really messed it up. And i became so depressed over that. Like, i messed up showing him i care about him and now i messed up his memorial too. But I've been seeing a therapist and now i am ready to get this fixed and finished so that Dylan can properly be recognized. Unfortunately with the way the world is now i do not have disposable income. I'm barely scraping by and living paycheck to paycheck. And so i have created this GoFundMe. To ask if there are any kind souls who would be willing to help me with this. It would mean the world to me to be given the opportunity to complete this memorial. Please, if you are able to, donate and help me reach my goal