Leaving the US for Safety, Love, and Family

So I'm Emi. I'm 30. Money is rather tight right now and I have a funny situation. Like, not ha ha funny. But could be funny to the wrong people, I guess?

I'll put it to you this way: I'm trans and ohio is getting to be a achy-breaky place for us. Well, not just Ohio. The US. I don't feel safe here. I do not need to go further into information as well, it's annoying that I have to explain to people that being assaulted for going to the bathroom isn't fun. Family, extended family and past friends coming out over the last few years to mention that you know, I suck. And not in the fun way. :( (basically disowned)

I've recently gotten bottom surgery and it completely drained what savings I had left because I had to cover some uber rides to and from places which ended up costing me a bit more than just money, in the ways of healing. I ended up with 2 stitch tears and a rip.

I'm a bit of a memer but this is quite serious.

I'm tired. I'm so, god damn tired.

Finding out that I can't afford to pay for the biometrics, insurance, and what not - the waiting, the pain of not like, being there.

Canada has this wonderful thing about my type of partnerships. It just costs a bit. Now, what I can do is get an open work permit, which I plan to do to contribute to society because I like working. I really do. I'm not very picky at the moment on jobs but it's tricky. I do have a passport, though! I'll be getting the open work permit! I'm trying my hardest to stay optimistic!

It just sucks that we're in this situation though, and this is where why I am turning here even though I've pretty much lost hope, but I will keep trying every day to get there, to be home.

So back to it! I'm not sure of the gas prices generally but the plan is to drive cross country and just, not come back? Before I leave though, I am doing the open work permit thing. The problem is permanent residency, that's where things can get pricy.

Here's a fee breakdown:

(USD to CAD is a convertion rate of for $1 USD ~$1.35 CAD)

So we're looking at a total cost of $1265 CAD ($939.52 USD).

Gas could range anywhere from $395.81 CAD ($293.96 USD) (so rounding up and adding for say a snack or a drink every 14 hours to nap, lets make it $457.80 CAD ($340 USD)

* I'm including CAD because some of the travel included will be in Canada.

I'm not hopeful that any of this will work, or I will get any help because I'm basically stuck.

There is a lot of information I'm leaving out intentionally as to not like, seem like I'm such a waste; such as the stress of what else is going on right now, car insurance being expensive right now, my phone bill, my depression of not being near the person I love right now (we've dated for a while before this decision), and how I will support her if I can get all of this done soon.

Any help is appreciated.

Much love!