We lost our mother to murder.

My name is Kamri Jones. I am the oldest child of Casey Kempker. My mother had three kids. I am 19, my brother is 16, and my youngest brother is 7. My mom was recently murdered April 8th, 2016. She was murdered by her husband Lamont Gulley. Our mother was stabbed 15 times to death in front of my youngest brother. My youngest brother is severely autistic and cannot speak. I have my youngest brother in my care now. I'm basically a single parent now. I work hard everyday to make sure that my brother meets his needs. I work full-time. I have my brother in school. He will be attending speech and feeding therapy. I plan on going to community college in August. I have to. I have to better myself to be able to take care of my baby brother. I need an education. I'm already enrolled. I just don't have some of the things I need. I don't have a car, and that's really hurting me. I pay for uber as transportation every single day. I pay about $20.00 at the smallest amount to get around to do what I have to do. I take the bus when I can and have enough time to,, but with the way my schedule is and only having 24 hours a day to do so much. It's too hard to take the bus. I uber to work, to appointments, to errands, etc. I need a car and a laptop for school. I'm taking online courses at home so I can be home to raise my baby brother and also to comfort him. I'm doing all of this while grieving for my mother. My mother was really all I was around growing up. My mother was always home because she was sick. None of us really got out much. We weren't really exposed to much family at all growing up. All we really knew was each other. So it's hard definitely because sometimes I can't help but to feel alone especially emotionally. My mom is so far from us and she was all we knew. I had to clean up the crime scene. It took me 18 hours to do so. I spent 4 hours alone cleaning my mothers blood out the carpet. I seen every wound on my mothers body. It's hard not to think about but I have to keep going in life. My mom told me this. She always told me I have to pick myself back up for myself and my brothers who will need me after we lose her. My mom has throughly prepared me for this responsibility that I have taken on. I always knew that I'd take care of my baby brother because she was so sick and could've died any day from her disease. We weren't ever prepared for our mother to be murdered. I didn't even know her husbands last name until early February. They met on the bus late August and eloped about 3-4 weeks later. Due to religious beliefs dating is not allowed and that's why they eloped so quickly. It's definitely something to go through. I'd never wish the pain that I'm experiencing on anyone. I fight everyday to get through the days to make sure I do what I need to do every single day. There are no breaks at least not for now. I go and go and go. My mom always told me to make sure everything is in order after she passes because life is not just about me and what I want. I know have a special needs child that calls me "Momma." It's honoring. I have a life that depends on me to feed him, support him in every way possible. I have to do what is best for us always. I am starting to struggle figuring how to pay for a car and a laptop for college. She always told me that I will have to go to college. I can't live without an education. I can't take care of myself and the baby without an education. Anything helps honestly. I really appreciate everything. It really is mind blowing just knowing I seen my mom for the last time the day before she was murdered... People leave in a blink of an eye. So please appreciate your loved ones. Make sure they know how you feel. Always apologize. If I had a chance to at least tell my mom that before everything happened I'd feel a little better. I'm so glad she raised me to be strong enough to continue everyday not only for myself but my two younger siblings.
http://woodtv.com/2016/04/10/kentwood-homicide-victim-was-41-year-old-mother/