Sickle cell patient

Hi, my name is neshone dumas. I am currently 19 years old, I was born November 21,1996. I was born with sickle cell anemia also called "sickle cell diease" which is A group of disorders that cause red blood cells to become misshapen and break down. I also had TIA. As the years have progressed I developed Chronic Moyamoya disease, which is also known as moyamoya sydrome, which is a rare bit very serious condition in which the walls of the internal carotid arteries the vessels that supply blood to important areas of the brain become thickened and narrowed. This causes the flow of oxygen rich blood to the brain to gradually slow down, and makes it more likely that a blood clot with form. I have multiple scars on me from all the surgeries, 1 on my neck, 3 on my chest and a big one across my stomach. People used to make fun of me while I was in middle school and high school. They made me feel less of myself because I wasn't normal like them. When I was older enough to understand the doctors told me that I probably wouldn't make it past 25 years old, everytime I have to have surgery once a month I am very nervous before going in due to thinking I won't make it back out. When I was 15 I stayed the night over my friends sister house and in the middle of the night I was having a sickle cell attack I couldn't breath all I could do was cry, her sister thought I was kidding got up and yelled at me through all of my items to the front door and told me to get out after she called 911. All I wanted to do was kill myself afterwards. I started going to church talking to god more and more asking him to please help me out please cure me, still nothing. I still pray everyday and night asking him to cure my body, I will not give up! It'll mean a lot to me if anybody could donate to me to help pay my hospital bills anything will help even if it's .50 to a dollar I will greatly appreciate any help I can get thank you everyone and god bless!!!