Disabled, Divorced, and Homeless.

**Update at bottom**

My real name is Trevor Altoft, I have it changed on Facebook purely for branding reasons, in conection with my YouTube channel.

 I've been disabled and unable to work for over ten years now. The doctors only diagnosis is Irritable Bowel Syndrome, however, I have an uncommon and sevre case of it. Everything I eat or drink results in a lot of pain, and as such, makes it incedibly difficult to focus on anything but the pain. For more info, please read this, http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/irritable-bowel-syndrome/basics/definition/con-20024578

 The majority of the details of current situation are mentioned in the video "My Life Story So Far Part 2 - Where Things Get F'd Up".  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYDjogPOoJI

My current situation is as follows. I have been supported for many years by my soon to be ex-wife. Due to her wages as a Nurse, I was unable to be on disabilty, but I do qualify for it. There is a few issues I have trying to go on it now. First off, Canada has changed disability around, and I would likely now need a lawyer to get it. If I did mange to get on it, I would likely get about $500 a month, as I'm techinally able bodied. The first thing they require you do though, is do everything you can to get alimony. Which also requires a lawyer, though I don't forsee her refusing me alimony. She is a good person, she just can't handle me being diasbled anymore.

 So why I'm asking for so much, is the chance to start a new life for myself. To heal my broken heart, mind and body.  In less than two months I won't have a place to live, and I can't afford a place on alimony or disability alone. I need some time to get myself together, without panicing about if I'm going to be homeless, and how I'm going to eat. My pain meds alone are about $500 a month because I chose medical marihuana over oxycontin, which is not covered by meical insurance.

I do have the option of moving to New Zealand to live with my cousin. That requires quite the sum of money too, as they require you to have $5000 in the bank on top of some other requirements of immigration.

 I've been told time and time again, you have to ask for help. This is me humbly asking for help, thank you so much for your time. Hope you have a nice day. Cheers!

 **Update** The divorce was handled out of court, as I could not afford a lawyer, I took what I could get, which was a small sum of money and no alimony. I had no choice in the matter, and was too mentally unstable to even think about what I was actually doing. Which was giving up alimony for the next 5.5-11 years.

 Presently I have exhausted that small sum, and am still not much better mentally, I have yet to actually have time to heal. At this point in time, I don't have the resources for first and last rent, as well as I have very little posessions. I have my laptop and a hand full of clothes, and as such, need a bed, dishes, all the little things one usally has in an apartment. As I don't yet have an apartment, these are all secondary concerns.

 I appreciate all the support and help I've gotten over the  nearly past year, it means a great deal to me, thank you so very much, Big Bear Hugs!