Ahren’s Top Surgery

I am raising money for my surgical costs for my top surgery. This is a very uncomfortable thing for me to do and has taken me over 2 years to even build up the courage to talk about it, so please bear with me. Being transgender is not something society teaches you to be proud of. But I cannot help who I am. People on the outside are constantly feeling entitled to personal information that wouldn’t be normal talking about with other people. Like my genitalia, my sex life, what traumas could have possibly made me the way I am. It’s uncomfortable. I walk outside of my home every day stressed beyond belief of being ostracized, because its happened multiple times already. I’m fortunate to have friends and some family who sees worth in me regardless of my gender. But its made me lose the family i love the most in the process. And thats a weight that will never be lifted. Ive never had self-image issues until i started transitioning. And they didn’t even come from me. People comment to me about all the things I lack as a man, as if having those things is what makes a person who they are. It gets in your head and makes you feel less than even when you know in your heart your worth. I was working out 5-7 times a week, sometimes twice a day, to keep up with my body shape to keep hateful comments away. Thats so draining. It got to the point where I was asking myself “what am i even doing? Who am i doing this for?? For them.. or myself?” I started to not even know the answer and it took a huge toll on my mental health. There’s only so much gyming you can do to hide from your insecurities. I’m not asking for charity. But the society we live in makes it difficult for me to achieve some of the goals I set for myself. And it’s okay to ask for help sometimes, i have to tell myself this every day. Being black alone is dangerous and scary enough. But being a black transgender male is a whole new demon. Make no mistake, i love my life. I am so much more fulfilled and stable in who i am. But I can recognize when certain odds are stacked against me. These procedures are expensive and most of them are not covered by insurance fully, if any at all. So if you’re willing to help it would be greatly appreciated and even if you can’t help monetary wise but would still like to support it you can share this and maybe someone else will be able to. The cost would cover my consultation, top surgery, aftercare, and lost work expenses to pay my bills still during recovery. If you want to help directly my cashapp is $ahrenrene and my venmo is @ahrenrene. Thank you.