HELP A BLACK DISABLED TRANS WOMAN ESCAPE RAPE

MY NAME IS NICOLE I AM A 19 YEAR OLD DISABLED BLACK TRANS WOMAN WHO HAS JUST BEGUN HER TRANSITION. FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE I HAVE & SINCE BEFORE I CAN REMEMBER I BEEN SEXUALLY ABUSED AND RAPED BY MY FATHER WHO ON OCCASION DRUGS ME. I AM NOT SURE HOW MANY TIMES IT HAS HAPPENED BUT I HAVE WOKEN UP A FEW TIMES AND PINNED DOWN AND STRANGLED. I JUST BEGAN MY TRANSITION AND MY OLDER BROTHER FOUNT MY CLOTHING ITEMS I HAD HIDDEN UNDER MY BED WITH FEMALE ITEMS IN. I AM SCARED FOR MY LIFE THAT HE IS GOING TO TELL BECAUSE HE PUNCHED ME AROUND MY FACE AS SOON AS I WALKED IN. MY FAMILY ARE A VERY CONSERVATIVE RELIGIOUS FAMILY AND I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO IS QUEER HERE. MY COUSIN WAS RECENTLY OUTED & A WEEK LATER WAS RANDOMLY “ABDUCTED” AND NOW NOBODY SPEAKS ABOUT HER AND MY OWN MOTHER SAID SHE BROUGHT SHAME TO OUR FAMILY AND GOD WAS CLEANSING HER BY “KILLING HER.” I AM SO SO TERRIFIED. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!! MY MOTHER ALSO KNOWS I HAVE BEEN SEXUALLY ABUSED AND RAPED FOR MONTHS NOW AND TOLD ME THAT I WAS LYING ALTHOUGH SHE SEES BRUISES ALL OVER MY BACK OFTEN. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I CANT CONTACT THE AUTHORITIES BECAUSE MY FAMILY ARE SUS AND KEEP ME LOCKED IN. I DONT WANT TO CAUSE ANYMORE PROBLEMS I JUST WANT TO GET AWAY. I AM NOT ALLOWED TO LEAVE THE HOUSE. BUT I COULD ESCAPE IF NECESSARY BUT FOR THAT I WOULD NEED MONEY TO LIVE OFF. OR EVEN A MONTHS RENT SOMEHWERE. WE ARE IN A PANDEMIC AND I AM DISABLED AND UNEMPLOYED. I AM AN ARTIST AND MY TRUE PASSION IS ART. I NEED TO GET MY SELF OUT OF HERE. I AM EXHUASTED. AND I AM SCARED FOR MY LIFE. MY FATHER & BROTHER ARE BITH ABUSIVE. I WILL BE KILLED. PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME. MY FATHER COMES INTO MY ROOM AND RAPES ME EVERY OTHER NIGHT. I SCREAM AND MY MOTHER PRETENDS TO BE ASLEEP. THEY ALL DO. I AM SO TERRIFIED. IF I DO NOT FIGURE SOMETHING OUT SOON I WILL BE KILLED. I AM SURE OF IT. MY BROTHER WILL SPEAK TO MY FAMILY. PLEASE HELP ME ESCAPE THIS LIFE. I DESERVE FREEDOM. I SESRVE HAPPINESS :( IT IS HAPPENING ALMOST EVERY NIGHT. I CANT EVEN EAT THE FOOD OR DRINK ANYTHING HERE BECAUSE IM SCARED I WILL BE DRUGGED FROM IT. I AM NOT IN A SAFE SPACE. I AM SO SCARED FOR MY LIFE :((((( PLEASE FUCKING HELP ME.