Forced to ask for help

Those that know me well know I am a very prideful person and I do not like asking for help. But I need help . It’s incredibly hard for me to ask. I watched my mom do all the hard things by herself while struggling with her health mentally and physically and thought I could be successful doing the same but I’m drowning.

I was just diagnosed with bipolar disorder and have been struggling with my depression, anxiety, self harm and suicidal ideations. I’m going to be going inpatient at Indiana Center for Recovery September 18th 2023 to get mental health back on track. I can be inpatient anywhere from 10 days to 6 weeks. After my time in ICR I will have to take time off work to continue outpatient treatment. My mom and dad will be taking care of Adeline while I am away. I am very lucky to be going to a facility that is close to home.

I will be trying to get FMLA and hopefully short term disability. But even if I do get short term disability that amount is only 60% of my gross pay and will not be enough to cover my bills. Insurance will not be paying for a very hefty portion of my stay at ICR. I will be putting myself into a large amount of debt to do this. I also don’t qualify for food stamps. I am exploring options with local charities and resources. I am open to recommendations for bill help/money revenue that’s not "on the books" work for while I’m off work for a couple months. The work cannot be “on the books” employment. It has to be something that’s cash due to the possibility of being on short term disability. I know I can go to food pantries if needed for food.

But for the time being I am asking for a small amount of help if you're able. Any kind of help is appreciated. $500 is a small goal to help with bills, food and medicines. My bills are typically $1200-$1400 a month. I appreciate all the help and well wished from everyone. Thank you all so much.