If you know me, you know this is super difficult for me. I've never been the type of person to ask for help, especially because I know times are hard for a lot of us.

In June I made the decision to leave Safeway. My hair was falling out in patches, I was crying at work, getting confrontational with rude customers (when I pride myself on my ability to handle most of them with grace and patience.), I wasn't mentally able to handle working with the public. My performance was never actually questioned and management didn't want me to leave, but my mental health was affecting my relationship as well as my ability to do my job.

For the last 6 months, we've been able to scrape by, still making sure we had time and a little extra money to be able to do things with Axyl. Getting pregnant wasn't an accident, but Dillon getting laid off 7 months into his new job was completely unexpected. It didn't take him long to find a new job, but we're still 2 weeks out from him getting a paycheck, and the late fees are already piling up.

His last paycheck through his last job was $88 and we got that today. Unemployment hasn't been successful as of yet, and I don't know what else to do. We just need to make it through this month and the beginning of next month before things smooth back out.

1l3 of Dillon's checks were going to child support, because for some reason the first 3 or 4 months at his last job, child support wasn't being taken out of his checks, so back support started adding up.. We've been door dashing to cover gas and food, plus trying to cover bills, knowing that come April we'll have to pay back a pretty hefty portion of what we're making now, because door dash doesn't handle taxes.

We took out a personal loan to buy our travel trailer, and it has offered us a lot of freedom, none of which has been financial. That loan is a secured loan, with our only vehicle attached to it, and that's the payment that was returned this morning.

I know this may be asking a lot right before the holidays, but at this point, even with social services, we could really use some help and appreciate every penny or share.