Help with doctor bills

39 years old recently Disabled. Needing funds of any amount, To pay doctor bills. I've Been on a disability leave from Work since may, only drawing half of my pay which is $250 every two weeks, before insurance, taxes and other deductions) with the possibility of not returning. I will lose that benefit in late November. Doctors won't release me, neither or am I capable to lift, stand or even sit for long periods of time. Only relief is to lay flat on my back. I have Degenerative spine, spinal stenosis, buldging ( dislocated) disc, also causing pain down my entire right leg and side. I've had an epidural, with no success or improvement. If I'm able to afford and keep my health insurance to pay for it , I've got an appointment for another epidural in January.

I've been a hard worker my entire life..and very independent and very personal type person, so, anyone who truly knows me, knows asking for help of any kind is difficult for me. I love people, meeting new people And working with my hands. I miss work. I miss "life", and everything about it. All this has caused me to give up and my my dreams go as well. I've Worked 2 full-time jobs for the past ten years, now, and nothing to show for it. Lesson learned for others: please don't work your life away - it's not worth it. I'm currently Seeing a psychiatrist, as I've dealt with depression and anxiety my entire life ( due to a rough childhood, with an abusive alcoholic father) but Dealing with pain and having to sit most of my days and without the ability to move and walk and stay active it has increased anxiety and depression, giving me to much time to think about those things that I used to be able to avoid by staying busy). I'm not a sitting type person. I used to be very active, and always doing something. My passion was kayaking. Something I can't do now. I've lost faith and myself. I have health insurance, but unfortunately only pays so much. With pain management, my co-pay is $75 upfront before they'll even see me. I've applyed for disability income, this year in May . what a process it has been. I go in December for my medical examination. But, even then after ( if I'm approved) it will take 2 months til I'll get an income. I've always been a giving person and hope, that now, that's its time in need, I can get the help and gook karma I'm needing in return. But, unfortunately, due to some untrustworthy people and those that scam good-hearted people, that I'm assuming this is a lost cause. But, I pray and I'm giving it a shot. I appreciate any amount you can spare. Literally, no donation is to small. I'm terrified that I'm going to lose everything that I've worked hard for, the big things ( car, home.. Etc) not the small materialistic things. If you find it in your heart to donate, may it come back to you 3 times fold. I'm not that type of person, take anything that I haven't worked or earned. So, this is an extremely difficult thing to ask.