I need help.

Hi There, my name is Jose Pagan, you may know me as Artificial Deluxe, which is how you got here. Today, determines how my future will look like. For the past decade of my life, I've lived in a bad home, sometimes I would tell my online friends my experiences I would go through. I lived with my brother, my sister, niece, and my mother. My sister and niece finally found a home for themselves to live. Somewhere safe.

My mom wouldn't care about what we go through, sometimes if we don't do as we're told, she'd lock us out the house, take away our electronics, and even threaten us. Before me and my brother were even born, my sister would tell me the stories she'd went through with my mom. How my mom would beat her as a child, to the point where my sister would bleed.

As the years passed, she met my father and then me and my brother we're born, things we're going well until the day we move into a new house. My mother would go to a church that would be close by, owned by our Neighbors. They manipulated my mom, used her anger as a weapon, because of them, they forced my parents to divorce, as a child i barely spent time living with my father, we spent time together but not as often. Years pass and me and my sister finally stand up for us, my sister left, and once i found out I could live on campus, i left too. Day by Day I would pray of getting out of that house, she made me emotional, if i didn't listen to her, she'd call the cops, she'd do whatever it takes to get what she wants. Hell, a few months back, I was gone for about 2 and a half months in a different state, because of her she messed with my bank accounts, and made a situation because she wanted to find a reason to be mad. That day, i didn't stay quiet, I didn't care what would happen to me, I just wanted her to know what she's been doing is wrong. and she knows and doesn't care.

My father, offered to help me, my sister, offered to help me. The minute i left to college, my mom didn't want to help me. I'm scared for what'll happen if I can't pay the rest of this bill off. I don't know what she's going to do to me, or if I'll even come back.

Living on campus, changed my life, I was able to be who I wanted to be, I wasn't forced to do anything anymore. She would always find a reason to be upset towards me. She was mad at me when I left, she was mad at my graduation, she would never be proud of me. It's always "You're never going to change" or "You remind me of your father and your sister."

If you want the full story on why I need help, watch the stream, i'll explain everything. I just, I can't go back there.

Any donation helps. I have Until January 27th, if not, I won't be able to stay on campus anymore. The sooner, the better,, Thank you.