Help Devyn and Roeland

Friday, January 19th we lost someone very dear to us. My father was an amazing man, an inspiration and loved by so many. I had the honor or spending the last 5 years taking care of my father, sharing a home with him and my children (Aiden,11 & Roeland,2) got the best gift in the world, to be with their grandpa every day. My father's passing has hit us very hard, emotionally and financially. I am now left with many bills and car malfunctions to take care of on my own. My father has always helped my children and I, and now with his passing I have started working with Tender Loving Care, a home health agency. I start work Friday, but have nothing to fix my van for transportation and am terrified that I will not be able to afford our rent or other bills in time. I am beyond embarrassed to even reach out this way and feel very low as a mother, and as a daughter to a man who accomplished so many amazing things in his life. I don't have any family to turn to. I am ashamed that I was not able to finish school, or hold a job over the years, between caring for my father 24/7 and caring for 4 children 24/7. Now i am struggling to get by. I have already sold some items near and dear to me, and tried posting an add for housekeeping/nanny positions, with no luck. I am excited to start working this week. Taking care of people is a very big passion of mine, I hope to one day be able to start nursing school like my father wanted me to. I am embarrassed for making a go fund me and feel as though I am going to receive a lot of hell for it. My father was adement that I care for him, because he wanted to be with his grandchildren, he wanted to help us, he helped us more than words can express, but sadly cannot help us anymore. Anything is appreciated more than words could ever describe. Thank you for even just taking the time to read this.