In Memory of Little Baby Hunter

On May 28, 2022, my entire world was ripped away from me, leaving me broken and destroyed. I lost my beautiful 7-week-old son Hunter Taylor Harmer to cardiac arrest on this day. He was my reason to get up every day, my hope for the future. He was my joy and happiness. He saved my life. Before him, I was months, possibly days away from dying, and I couldn’t have cared less. But once I found out I was pregnant, I CHANGED EVERYTHING INSTANTLY! I got clean and sober, and I’m proud to say I NEVER used during or after my pregnancy. It was all because I had him, and that’s all I needed. I had found my purpose in life. He brought me back from the verge of death. He also brought me back into the lives of my family; along with the other people he brought into my life who were supportive and loving. When he was born, it was like I could see colour for the first time in my entire life. Now that he’s physically not present, it’s devastating. It’s been unbearably hard without him. I’m not perfect, but every day I get a little stronger and have decided that to honour him. I need to stay on the same path that he lead me to. My purpose will still always be him. Only now, I have to find different ways of honouring him, like following my dreams, just like I promised him I would. I love you so much baby and I will keep on building the life I promised us.

Any donations will be put towards helping me get back to my feet after this devastating blow. When it was baby and me, we lived in a maternity house with other mothers with babies the same age. While there, I was well supported with whatever baby and I needed. This was all for a very reasonable rent price. Here I also had the opportunity to attend nightly life skills classes where I threw myself into learning things like; parenting skills, boundaries skills, and budgeting. Now that my beautiful baby is gone and it's only me, I was expected to move out THE DAY he died as you can't live in a maternity house without a baby. I lost my son and my home and everything I had been working towards all at once. I had planned on this being our home for the next 2 years while I got some education and continued to grow myself as a person. These funds would go towards helping me find a home that is a suitable environment for healing, as well as seeking appropriate grief counselling and handling bills while I grieve the loss of my amazing little boy. With this help, I hope that in the future, after doing much healing, I can find myself on a path toward realizing my dreams of becoming a yoga teacher and owning a studio where I can help other women who've struggled with addictions. Focusing primarily on pregnant women who are trying to stay or get sober. I want to honour my baby's legacy by continuing to bring beauty and joy into dark places that he did for me and keep in the direction he pointed me.