My dads memorial
Donation protected
Hi guys,
TW!!!!
my dad took his own life april 14th. I didn’t get the news until April 27th and I am in complete shock. My dad was extremely mentally ill and suffering so much from his own mental torment and addictions, but now he’s resting in a place much much better than here. I’m going to nyc to sort everything out with my family, and since this was so unexpected we don’t have the finances for this. We need to get a few plane tickets, set up his memorial, and get his apartment, body etc sorted out. I am making this to help out my family and I with how much everything will cost, mainly his memorial and the traveling. My grandparents won’t be working while we’re in ny therefore they will be struggling more than they already do financially and I just want to relieve some of that stress for them and for myself. anything helps even $1, so please if anyone can donate anything it would mean the absolute world, because mine feels like it’s in complete pieces right now.
a little about my dad…
so, my dad and I had a very complicated relationship. but I don’t fully blame him, he was extremely sick, he was addicted to certain substances but he couldn’t admit it especially to himself. he’s been struggling with all of this since he was about 17 years old. he had me when he was 20 so just imagine. my father was an extremely smart, diligent, talented, kind man. he had a good heart and had good intentions, but what happened to him is the result of drugs and illness. i always ALWAYS loved him dearly and cared for him, and always will. him and i had a special relationship, even with all the hardships we both faces with eachother, he was still my father and i love him. i just wish he didn’t feel like this was his only option, i wish he didn’t give up on himself. he had so much to live for, all i wanted was for him to get better, for him to truly live. but his mind is at ease now, he’s in peace with himself, wherever he is. and i just hope he knows we all truly loved him so much, he just needed help but it had to start with him, and he couldn’t. please tell people you love them. please. even if you’re mad at them, even if your relationship isn’t the most stable, please just remind people you love and care about them, it can save a life. and please stay safe, please get help if you need, and please please know that i am here for all of you if you’ve been through this, if you deal with any mental illness, if you’re an addict and need help getting help i am here for you. and know that ending your life is not the only option, you have so much to live for even if you feel like you don’t, i promise you do. i love you all, and papa i love you so. so much. and miss you dearly, i wish i could’ve said goodbye, i wish i could hug you, and i just need you to know i love you, and you are so missed. ❤️
i’ve never dealt with any type of loss, at least to someone this close to me, i’ve never made a gofundme so i’m sorry if this it too long, or if this is not the right way to do this idk. i’m in complete shock and this doesn’t feel real i just can’t believe my dad is gone, i just got the news yesterday and now we’re rushing to go to nyc to sort everything out. thank you for everyone who has reached out to me already, you have all been so sweet and so incredibly supportive so thank you, even if you can’t donate thank you for all your kind words and prayers and love. i love all of you very much and so grateful for everything and everyone<3
if you’ve gone through any kind of loss, i am so so sorry. the feeling is truly indescribable and i just, no words. thank you for reading and listening❤️
papa… i love you. so much. and i’m so so so sorry. i miss you, forever.
TW!!!!
my dad took his own life april 14th. I didn’t get the news until April 27th and I am in complete shock. My dad was extremely mentally ill and suffering so much from his own mental torment and addictions, but now he’s resting in a place much much better than here. I’m going to nyc to sort everything out with my family, and since this was so unexpected we don’t have the finances for this. We need to get a few plane tickets, set up his memorial, and get his apartment, body etc sorted out. I am making this to help out my family and I with how much everything will cost, mainly his memorial and the traveling. My grandparents won’t be working while we’re in ny therefore they will be struggling more than they already do financially and I just want to relieve some of that stress for them and for myself. anything helps even $1, so please if anyone can donate anything it would mean the absolute world, because mine feels like it’s in complete pieces right now.
a little about my dad…
so, my dad and I had a very complicated relationship. but I don’t fully blame him, he was extremely sick, he was addicted to certain substances but he couldn’t admit it especially to himself. he’s been struggling with all of this since he was about 17 years old. he had me when he was 20 so just imagine. my father was an extremely smart, diligent, talented, kind man. he had a good heart and had good intentions, but what happened to him is the result of drugs and illness. i always ALWAYS loved him dearly and cared for him, and always will. him and i had a special relationship, even with all the hardships we both faces with eachother, he was still my father and i love him. i just wish he didn’t feel like this was his only option, i wish he didn’t give up on himself. he had so much to live for, all i wanted was for him to get better, for him to truly live. but his mind is at ease now, he’s in peace with himself, wherever he is. and i just hope he knows we all truly loved him so much, he just needed help but it had to start with him, and he couldn’t. please tell people you love them. please. even if you’re mad at them, even if your relationship isn’t the most stable, please just remind people you love and care about them, it can save a life. and please stay safe, please get help if you need, and please please know that i am here for all of you if you’ve been through this, if you deal with any mental illness, if you’re an addict and need help getting help i am here for you. and know that ending your life is not the only option, you have so much to live for even if you feel like you don’t, i promise you do. i love you all, and papa i love you so. so much. and miss you dearly, i wish i could’ve said goodbye, i wish i could hug you, and i just need you to know i love you, and you are so missed. ❤️
i’ve never dealt with any type of loss, at least to someone this close to me, i’ve never made a gofundme so i’m sorry if this it too long, or if this is not the right way to do this idk. i’m in complete shock and this doesn’t feel real i just can’t believe my dad is gone, i just got the news yesterday and now we’re rushing to go to nyc to sort everything out. thank you for everyone who has reached out to me already, you have all been so sweet and so incredibly supportive so thank you, even if you can’t donate thank you for all your kind words and prayers and love. i love all of you very much and so grateful for everything and everyone<3
if you’ve gone through any kind of loss, i am so so sorry. the feeling is truly indescribable and i just, no words. thank you for reading and listening❤️
papa… i love you. so much. and i’m so so so sorry. i miss you, forever.
Organizer and beneficiary
Alexandra Tavarez
Organizer
New York, NY
Maria Terrero
Beneficiary