HELP A TRANS BIPOC LEAVE A LIFE OF SEXUAL ASSAULT

i am a TRANS BIPOC who has been sexually assaulted & molested by a family member since my childhood. Who is in NEED urgently!!! I have been victimised and attacked for countless nights now and also through out my life. I’ve been pinned down, raped in agony and never given the choice. Donating to my campaign would give opportunity of rehoming my self as I have no funds to my name and no job opportunity because of COVID. I couldn’t possibly make a video or outed my self on twitter or social media and been extra PUBLIC because I have mutuals & friends from my area who know me personally who would snitch and risk my life if I was caught I could get killed by a homophobic african family. We already live in a transphobic tight-knit Islamic community & I can’t trust anyone :( specially people who don’t even know I am trans yet and every single friend I have is no where close to me and I have no way of even seeing them with so little finances. I attempted to take my life again last night and 3 nights before that because I’ve been raped SO much. This week alone I have red marks around my prostate area and all over my legs with bruises, and cuts from my abuser. Every night it’s the same situation, and I don’t think I can keep it up much longer. I attempted to take as many pills as I could to numb the pain out and I keep waking up in this cycle of never being strong enough just to die peacefully when I’ve attempted to take my life. I either need to escape this feeling by escaping this place or literally end my life as we know it because I can’t do this. TW (r*pe) It will happen again tonight, I’ll pretend to be asleep and he will come into my room and assault me, he’ll cut me open again and I’ll cry quietly so nobody wakes up. He’ll pin me down and hurt me even more and I’ll just feel the need to be dead all over again. This man who has been raping me without protection for years has taken advantage & could have processed sexual diseases into me without myself ever even knowing. I attempted to tell people in my household and nothing came from it. I was told if I said what I said again I would be thrown out on the streets, I was also severely beaten when I tried to confess to me being raped. I’ve just began transitioning bit by bit & would love be out of this transphobic & homophobic household so I could be my self unapologetically physically. If I don’t get out of here soon I will be ending my life, I deserve so much better. We deserve so much better as trans women. I can’t breathe here. And I have no choice I have nothing to my name. I need help and I need it as fast as i can. It will happen again tonight, it will happen tomorrow, and it will happen the day after if I stay here... please find it on your heart to love and support us trans women who are still transitioning even if it’s a small donation or just a share. I need and deserve to be loved! Not abused, cut and raped. I deserve normality and this is the only way I can try...... thank you. Cash app: £brujafemme Twitter @Brujafemme