Help Austen make Art

Hi, my name is Austen Messick. I take care of my mother who is transitioning into a care facility. The reason I am asking for money is for art supplies, food and living expenses. I have many art projects that are either stalled due to lack of ANY MONEY or have never been started. I need about $250 to complete the tactor-beam (probably more). But, some of that is equipment that I need to purchase.

I need about $1250 for the bills that I am behind on. So, $1500 is my goal.

What is my story? I was sexually abused. Because of the severity of what I went through as a child. I have been trauma celibate for my whole adult life. I never talked about it. I suppressed all this trauma.

A year ago, I stopped suppressing and went into treatment only to be put into a dangerous situation that would have never happened if the genders were reversed.

I won't go into details. I have written enough details about this situation. I don't care. I was unwillingly involved in a weirdo love triangle between a sex-addict and her cop boyfriend. It turned to stalking and police harassment.

This situation has made me feel unsafe. I had a difficult time leaving the house because heartbreak processing and then I worried about being harassed and stalked. Honestly, I am hoping this will all be behind me when they arrest me on Feb 3. I am not going to court for this phony bullshit.

I proposed to my stalker with a ring I made from craft-wire, twine, purple glitter paper and a laxative pill.

I was making traps for my stalkers on twitter and looking at view-counts to see what was being shared around. The stalking was out in the open I think for a variety of reasons. Main one being discrimination from the mental-health professionals that should have stepped in before it got out of hand.

I am trying to put this all behind me. But when I noticed a policeman following me on twitter with ties to Texas. This twitter account was obsessed with doing mob violence. It seemed like he looked up news that would upset him that allowed him to vent violent mob justice bullshit on twitter. I was abused as a child and I don't look up pedos to think about "stringing them up." I have violent fantasies about pedos. TRUST ME!!! I hate them. I just avoid the subject. I don't like jokes about it. I don't like anything about that shit.

I have a court-date on Feb 3. I will be not showing to this court-appearance in protest of the discrimination that is the root cause of this entire situation. I have no hard feeling to my stalker or her policeman jealous lover. I hope they are happy together and spend the rest of their life together. He should get her a nice ring. She's a real catch.

I have been remixing some photos and shit I made during this whole situation. The idea is to take these "memes" that I make on my phone and translate them into the real world in mixed media. I want it to look l like a sign or something. Super hard edges and clean. Super clean. Almost looks like it was made by a machine.

I am my mother's caretaker until she goes into a care facility. I am not a bad guy. I am unwell. I need treatment but I am having difficulty trusting any treatment after my experience from my first round of treatment. Discrimination overlooked to the point of claims of stalking and harassment on both sides (probably).

The pictures I am sharing on here are badly cropped for gofundme. I don't like them the way they are. I will make a separate gallery with all them somewhere.

I have to figure that out, though. PLEASE HELP ME MAKE ART AND SURVIVE. This has been an awful situation. I was heartbroken and discriminated against. It was a really tricky knot of very negative and painful emotions to untangle.

It has been a struggle to work. I am behind on bills. I need help. If you can help. I will continue to make art.

I have a "Tractor-Beam" project that I need to buy materials for. I also have those mixed media projects I want to start working on.

Any additional help beyond catching me up on bills will be used for art materials. Thanks so much. Follow me on twitter. https://x.com/AustenMessick

I know I sound crazy. I am unwell, obviously. I have delusional thoughts but I know they are delusional. So, they are either speculations or fantasies.

I am making art about this. It is going to be fucking dope. Please help me make more and take care of my mom in her transition into a care facility. Thank you