Help for a Disabled Veteran

I am a disabled Veteran and am struggling to save up and buy a car while paying bills. I have been the go to guy for as long as I can remember and now for the last few years I've been needing the help and majority of the people I have helped in the past are unable to return the favor. 

I am just getting by, bills are getting paid I am eating and am working a part time job for the state. It's just extremely difficult to save up enough to buy a car or have a substantial down-payment. My credit is rising as I pay stuff off but that's still an issue in development. My debt had been accrued while I was taking care of my Mother before she passed and when my Father passed I had to cover the cremation cost. Other expenses were used to build a cabin on a property only to find out a year later that the owner was shady and I lost all money invested. Although all of this happened a little over a year ago the ripple effect is still in play and I am getting caught back up. 

If I am able to get a vehicle for winter I could work more hours but since I am only on a scooter for now I am just gonna work the weekends if I can.

If all my friends donated $25 to $30 I'd make the goal and be golden, that be nice. I have always been a better friend than banker so I am hoping this pays out if this doesn't I'm back to trying to save and hope nothing else happens between now and then, gonna take a while longer but no worries.

I would like to be able to just settle down somewhere but it seems as though I am cursed to never have anything nice for long, it seems like it's gonna be impossible for me to not stress every night, or get a night of peaceful sleep or enjoy just being alive. I am just depressed after all I have done in my life only to not even want to look at myself in the mirror anymore. I just get no joy in anything anymore hopefully the sun will shine a path for me again that I can enjoy.