EagleBelieversonlybelieve each one touch one

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Hi my name is Roxanne thank you for stopping to read my story.

I know it's long with be patient with me please. Thank you

Today I'd like to share my story with you I'm appealing for everyone that reads this, please share with another woman or man, especially those that maybe encountering similar lifestyle struggles.

I'm here to say don't give up. I've been up on mountains top experiences in life but also I have been down in the valleys of despair a pit of loneliness and homelessness.

Unfortunately the downs seem to be more than our ups.

I'm not ashamed anymore to say I'm still here no matter what I've been through. Real freedom is knowing the truth transparently is something never to be a shame of.

I'm fulfil you wrong purpose in life. I have the found some keys. The greatest key is the power of truth to yourself and be true to others. This is freedom.

I've learnt that this life is for living. I choose life

I no longer wish to give up, giving up is not a option.

My story is like that of Joseph, I've been in Royal places and positions I have served in the British Army work in the top end privilege jobs in security industry. I'm Also an ordinance in the church.

None of these experiences has stopped my Pit experiences like that of Joseph's

My story started as a young black woman in England only A few to enter the British Army at that time.

I have been privileged enough to able to serve in a British Army.

I encountered mounting tops experiences and darkness.

I was given the job of serving our late Queen Queen Elizabeth 11 and Prince Philip as her personal lady waiting on her first visit The Royal Artillery Barracks in 1976.

Indeed my Army career was at the Pinnacle of success

I'm grateful to have been allowed to served in the British Army. It's helped my career in life You continue to shape me into the person I'm still becoming.

I've met remarkable people from prime ministers heads of states also government officials. I've also been fortunate to work in the security industry on high profile jobs I've met billionaires buying purchasing fine arts of every description, my jobs in the past has been both a blessing and eye opener.

I'm also commission Street Pastor helping homeless and vulnerable people on the streets

I've been Highly trained by Horseback UK as a mentor to wounded soldiers.

I received Royal hand shakes Queen Camilla on my WhatsApp

Profile picture shaking my hands touched by greatness. Touched by goodness touched by mercy touched by love.

But nothing in my life is prepared me except for truth. This was my preparation is put my heart and Soul believing the truth makes away.

This has been my life ups and downs

Sadly experiences such like these seems to be stripped away by dark days.

Some of great lossed I listed a few, I loss my Army career because I choose love I married a Civilian my now ex-husband. I was a stripped of my career also my homes time and time again so it seems.

Life Seems cruel it but I have to say also life has filled with extraordinary things because of Life and Love.

I have meet extraordinary people done extraordinary privileged things in spite of all the ups and downs

I am eternally grateful for a chance here to live again and to be a mother to be a grandmother, my greatest blessing.

But like Joseph story yet again I've ended up being homeless and separated from loved ones.

Sadly my valley experience this time is because of betrayal of those I love.

I've suffered illness inflicted by myself because I blame myself for being so willing in giving my heart away.

This time it's worse. Giving Love has been the causes of my losses betrayals and dark experiences.

I must admit The losses have not taken away. Be amazing experience a feeling free and truthful

I've had to see also what I have done wrong I trusted and believed the wrong persons. I've forgiven and tried to start the healing process my choices in the past Lack of wisdom on my part 〽️.

Yes I still believe in Love because Love first Loved me.

Feelings of Loss and trust has felt me isolated stripped financially emotionally physically and feeling mentally broken

But here I am ready to be fixed. Praying to be healed and ready to rise again.

I'm still able to believe in Love so

I've place myself in recovery medically spiritually physically.

I want to make healthier choices it's going to take lots of courage in spite of a few family members who does not believed the type of abuse that was inflicted on me Instead I was branded as abusive by those abusers , they have not said sorry.

I've been saying sorry most of my life to help myself heal and my abusers heal.

I'm not a saint. In fact, I've become fighter my soldier days as returned. So thankful for the Spirit of Joy is my true strength. It's not mine. It was given to me as a gift. A gift to be passed on to you. Remembering the good things helps to heal the hurt.

I've had to fight for my survival

Turning this situation around Just trying to walk away quietly taking nothing about the clothes on my back.

Fighting for someone's love is tiring. Lacking wisdom self destructing.

I know I have The Creator of this universe who loves me be on the shadow of a doubt because I'm still alive.

He is my vindicator and battle Axe .

Please. If you're being accused by You're abuser I know how this feels opens up. The womb that's still hasn't healed I understand it's the worst type of betrayal to counter more pain when you're already in pain.

I'm here to see turn it around. Help yourself by helping someone else It works.

I'm here to tell you find your purpose is to begin again Today let it go and start again.

I'm writing this to comfort myself despite the odds of being more abused.

I've got the beautiful keys and rhythm of life. I found the greatest opportunity is still love those who hurt you by forgiving. It's a opportunity to turn it around my pain into healing rain.

I'm now driven to get help for myself by helping others.

It's a new day. I have to start over again only this time with wisdom leading me.

Still I intend to rise again like the Eagle in Isaiah 40 .31 with your help.

I'm taking charge of my life in order to create order and stability I need a fresh start.

Please.

By donating to my GoFundMe your page makes One feels human again I'm believing

I'm not alone.

I've lived a life of giving back.

My number one cause is to raise enough money to support my first mission trip to Albania with my church City Church.

Newcastle.

Secondly, my life is worth living. I wish to rebuild a safe space.

Being a British army veteran has left me with powerful memories of comradeship and trust my brotherly and Sisterly bonds is undescribable.

In the military we worked together laugh together suffered together each soldier help's

To Win great victories together each one touches one we are helpers of each others we are soldiering for the sake of survival of others.

Sadly Some of us as we leave the military find ourselves loss until we find the saviour to help us.

Someone has saved me. I continue pass this love on. Going on a mission trip has been a lifelong dream.

I'm here to be transparent to ask for your help.

I need your help to survive so I can help others to survive

This is the victory my story I get to See healthy strong sons and a beautiful daughter also three beautiful granddaughters this has kept me up I'm in the valley experience.

My Faith in God has grown deeper stronger and is becoming a life saver because of His Grace.

Thank you helping it's people like you and myself We must share the Goodness this will turn things around don't give up. I'm preaching to myself lol .

Thank you for your kind words. Your smiles and your words of encouragement from the youngest to be oldest. You're a blessing. Thank you.

My pride and joy are my children I struggled to bring to bring them up with a kind of sanity. It's sad to admit that my negativity been damaging to my children for this I asked their deep and eternal forgiveness.

Yet I'm here to say my children are my happiness they have struggled like their mama but today there rising becoming my pride and love.

I've Enjoy to seeing them establishing themselves to Raise again.

This may seem like a sad story, but it's actually a victory one. I'm learning not afraid of the truth it helps one to find a way out of every dark situation.

When you know the truth, truth will set you free. Find truth fine. Peace, find a way to live again.

I have a new home so grateful .

I'm very grateful for this place of peace and safety.

I know to understand life is for us to share each other pains and struggles

If you're struggling, don't feel ashamed reach out to me with everything that I can. I'll try to help the kind words with my prayers with finances with my time with food clothes or just listen .

Now I'm extended my hand towards you this time.

I've lived a life of giving and now I'm asking for your help.

Please give to my GoFundMe page and give

In return I will help someone else I'm raising funds for myself and others

Trust was loss for a while I trusted a family members to save money for me while I gave my heart love and time continuing to work as hard as possible for family this person abuse me took my heart out.

My investment of love and labour was to be granted by my loved one savings money for me but instead nothing was saved for me.

I still continue to forgive because it's open New Chapter of life to change my destiny.

Like Joseph I was branded a liar to my own family remembers all the physical and emotional financial abuse caused unnecessary isolation self-inflicted pain was no acknowledged

I had to flee for my own safety sake the abuse I encountered was dangerous it was a waste of my precious Time.

I've been broken because my loved one betrayed me I felt afraid and alone because some close people choose to believe my abuser version of the story.

It's going to take time and some soul searching

Because I hope myself accountable for my actions in allowing to be abused, I allowed it med excuses for it I'm just guilty so we all need to hear you and for myself by opening up and taking all the bad stuff out so I can heal and make healthier choices

I know who I am and why I'm here. My purpose is to touch others to help heal.

I don't wish to be distracted

This is my story. My transparency which helps me to find my light bulb moments is my greatest blessing

Forgiveness is a powerful tool. I get to see inwards to ask for forgiveness for what I've done and forgiveness of what others have done

I asked myself why these experiences kept on returning It's building inner strength to overcome and to help overcome

So our betrayers and abuses actually is helping us to move forward the more they accuse us the more we will be vindicated.

I realise I've been empowered and blessed to be able to get away from this type of betrayal

But I'm also here to say to those people that hurt people to get help for themselves because they themself are hurting.

Now I can see clearly, after the rain ️☔

I'm taking possibility for my own actions, I'm glad that I can see It's time to break the cycle of abuse and lost.

I'm beautiful. I'm fearfully wonderfully made by creator Himself I am blessed and cannot be cursed. Amen

I'm so grateful for Truth the greatest Healer on my Heart ❤️

It's taken the kindness of my doctor also my church family who has been encouraging me to stay safe stay away from situations and conflicts.

I don't wish to blame any of my family members because I believe when our backs are against the wall we do overwhelmingly hurtful things to each other this must stop. I wanted this to stop.

Break the cycle hurt.

Many men and women out there are suffers of abuse but only those that have survived are grateful for light bulbs moments of deliverance.

This moments involve kind savers like doctors, police, church members neighbours there everywhere so I wish to publicly thank them.

I have suffered many types of abuse one can imagine, but this is building character wisdom to stop choosing the wrong relationships finally. I'm addressing my own issues.

As I reached the golden age of 66 this year, I've turned help on myself. Mentally I want to do better. I want to heal again

This is the first time in my life I've had a real wake up call.

So I wish say thank you.

Thank you.

Please can you help me give to my GoFundMe.

One final word to all strugglers all hurting people Please don't feel alone

You will rise again .It's time to arise again. Join me let's rebuild our lives together on my YouTube channel. Eaglebelieversonlybelieve.

I'm determining to do Right on my short journey of life

Each one touch one today by your Giving

Thank you for giving.

May your life be enriched with kindness, love, peace, forgiveness and Wisdom to start again. Thank you for reading.

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