My Lyme Disease Life

Hello, My name is Chenoa, I have been suffering from Chronic Lyme disease, babesia, chronic inflammatory response syndrome among other serious illness's for the last 3 years, in full body pain everyday, the first year I was bed ridden and didn't even know what was wrong with me. Neither did any Dr. Until I figured out I had mold toxicity and went to see a mold Dr, they also deal with Lyme disease so I was tested and it came back positive the first time, which is rare. I have been to three Lyme literate Doctor's in the course of two year's who couldn't and haven't gotten me any better, so much money down the drain and treatments that didn't work or almost killed me. I'm in the top 5% of the worst Lyme patient's. My body cannot detox on it's own, which is one of my biggest problems clinically to be able to get me well. I have not been able to go see a LLMD since September of 2016. I went through all my test's and blood work yesterday and discovered that my last Doctor failed to mention that my left kidney is enlarged and failing as we as ovarian cysts in my right overy. Most likely an enlarged heart especially since I have several heart issues caused by the Lyme. I recently had a CT scan of my brain by a Western doc for my seizures. I haven't gotten the result's almost two months later because I walked out of her office when she said chronic Lyme disease doesn't exist and that I don't have it. I am mostly bed ridden but am responsible for my 2 children so I end up running myself into the ground. I can't work and have had a very hard time filing for ssi. We are down to our last few dollar's and I need to see a doctor ASAP. I am 5'4 and 90 Pound's. I feel weary that my life is actually coming to an end. I live in a 5th wheel with my 10 year old daughter ( possible Lyme disease) and my 6 year old son who was diagnosed with Lyme disease without a positive test. We don't have a car and no way of getting around. I live alone because I had to get their dad, my partner of 13 year's, out of our home 4 month's ago because he suffers from addiction and started using and hasn't stopped for anything. He even got fired from the best job you could ask for making the most money. It probably would have just went to his habit anyway, sadly. I went as far as using the gofundme money that you all helped raise and moved 6 hour's away from him. He hasn't given the children a dime since April of this year. I'm scared, alone and need help. I called a Lyme literate Doctor today, first they said I couldn't be seen until August, 4th. They just called back and said they may be able to get me in this coming Tuesday but it's $1000 out of pocket!!! I need to go to save my life but I don't have the money at this time! Thank you so much. Anything help's! Blessing's, Chenoa Trimarco.