I am a  domestic abuse survivor  who has been given yet another challenge to overcome and that is the diagnosis of mental illness .

My life has never been easy due to circumstances I had no control over.

 In 1963 when I was only 2 years old, my drunken uncle, a Chicago Cop shot my mom in the head dead. That same man violated me for several years as did other men in the family. I carried the pain and shame of being raped and beaten as a child my whole life.

I quit school at 13 and got a fake ID for a daily pay job in a factory 

I've worked ever since, till I broke my foot in the Chicago snow and  was in a non walking cast for 3 years. MRSA infections prevented it from healing right. It feels like I'm stepping on glass.

It kills me not to be able to function physically like I used to.

My mental health was never a priority because growing up I was conditioned to keep quiet and hide the family secrets.

I was always taught to just SUCK IT UP BUTTERCUP !

I fought so hard to keep it together.

I didn't have the resources or support system to guide me through the effects from that kind of trauma, as well as dealing with domestic abuse was to much.

I have been diagnosed with 

PTSD, Bipolar disorder and Severe Anxiety and Major Depressive Disorder. 

So here I am a 59 year old woman with no family or close friends trying to maintain my brain along with the physical limitations of my body.

I did not choose the chaos that comes with mental health issues.

I live in a trailer park and have a rescue dog named ' Beastie Boy' He gives the best hugs! I don't know how much longer I'll be able to keep him. I truly am lost and alone. I am in a nightmare. 

With the threat of homelessness looming over my head I am scared that I will be lost in the cracks.

I can't afford rent or utilities,dog food or phone. A neighbor is kind enough to take me to the food pantry once a month. 

I don't have any health insurance to cover my much needed medication and therapy My hope is also to find an affordable computer and internet access. I want to take online classes in order to gain the skills to reenter the workforce.

I served my Catholic Church for years volunteered as a Catechist, cook and cleaner and have been abandoned by them as well. Please restore my faith that this Bible verse still matters.

I was a devoted wife and homemaker and volunteer for 27 years and my life changed in ways I never could have imagined.Now I'm in desperate need.

My prayer is that my GoFundMe will help prevent homelessness. 

In Gratitude,

God Love You !

Markiemarie Works

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