Medical Expenses, Healing & Temp Housing

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Hey Beautiful Earth Fam! 

Is anybody else out there feeling it!?!? Feeling like they got LIT on fire and life keeps throwing gasoline on their head? Like you want to….but you just can’t get out of bed? Does anybody dread sharing these gory details of their lives, but deep down inside, know it’s best to get them out of their head! Does anybody out there live in a full time day dream, plotting ways to escape this prison planet?  Anybody out there relentlessly trying to make it work, but life has a different plan for you…. And that one fucking Hurts!

This planet is no joke! It means business when it comes to life lessons. And they are not easy. So hear we are….. an open book, a stereotype crook & NO this is not jus another fishing hook trying to catch money. 

• If u can support financially….Miraculous 
  
• If u can help share my story….thank you!
  
• If u can simply call & offer love & connection. YesPlease!

Regardless, I am here laying it all out for the world to see & feel again. I hope this resonates Raw & unfiltered with u b/c This is how I truly experience the world. I have chosen to be uncensored in my humanity & I am here to help others by being transparent. 

My deepest intention every time I write,  share & rally support from all my loved ones is to bring truth and love to the world. All so we can riZe up and fly together.  So please, read on for anyone who wants to see me continue living on this planet and spreading my love & light . 

I am here in need of raising finances specifically to pay for MULTIPLE things that have creeped up all at once and shocked my system. 

1) MEDICAL EXPENSES - I have been in and out of the hospital multiple times this last week and I need to take care of ALL the blood work, X-ray And medical bills that I have accumulated going in and out the of the emergency room. I unfortunately let my health insurance slide as I have not been working in my sick state the last year other than selling crystals and prepping sculpture paintings and art to sell. 

2) OXYGEN TREATMENTS FOR WOUNDS - I need to get a package of sessions in the HYPERBARIC OXYGEN CHAMBER to heal the infection and wounds in my skin that won’t seem to close. I did my first one today and it helped so much. It made my whole day better for the first time in months. I need to do every day for 2 weeks +

3)  HOTEL ROOM NEXT DOOR TO CLINIC -

 I need to get a hotel room next to the hospital/oxygen clinic where I can rest for a week or two in a quite room. I need PEACE in order to heal. Nothing fancy, just peace and quite. 

4) LASTLY, THE COOL BUS -  lost its brakes coming down a mountain pulling a trailer which was the main reason I was so stressed to begin with. I spent the last month couch surfing MC trying to raise money to get it fixed and get it back. I made enough to get it fixed and back but now I’m driving around with a bus with a door that won’t close.  It’s Ghetto but I don’t really care lol. I need to get it fixed while I’m resting so my dog and bunny don’t jump out. Yep I have a bunny in a bus. 

You see, As a child, When i heard people say  we came here to earth to learn grow and heal, I didn’t fully understand the magnitude and the depth of that statement. Around 15 years old it set in, 25, I reallly felt it and by 35, I fully understood it. 

As much as I isolate myself, I also love to reach out to connect as much as possible. I love people and I love being around people. Sometimes I even have the thought that maybe I try to be around people too much, to the point where I am affected negatively by All the energies. Am I co-dependent. Do I need to spend more time alone? Are people the problem or the solution?!

I once wrote a line in a poem referring to life stating..

“the pain is worth it….cause your my 1st aid kid!” 

Iv found nothing is black & white in life. There’s  5000 shades of grey in between Every black and white. People are both the problem and the solution. All of us create problems in others lives and solutions. It’s actually quite a profound concept. Or as a song I recently heard states…. “What gives life also kills. Life meets death. Yin met yang. Its all part of the same whole. And It’s all about finding a healthy balance. Isolating and socializing both have their  time & place in each of our lives. One way is not better. But the balance of the two is highly necessarily in this life.  It is Easier said than done….

AND I lost my balance and isolated too long. 

I recently was reflecting on the fact that I have found myself all day dreaming about suicide….most days this entire last year. Not bc I wanted to die necessarily…..but bc I couldn’t handle the physical pain and discomfort Iv accumulated over the years. I just want out of the pain. 

And then when I think it can’t get worse, BOOM! I I hit a new rock bottom. Life loves to surprise us when we feel bad for ourselves…..or as some would say kick us again…. Right after we just got kicked down. These moments, when We have nowhere to go but UP, are where the magiK happens often! And it seems the only way to get up out of these dark holes, is to reach up to the sky, flailing your arms back and forth and screaming UP for help!!!

AND ITS SPECIFICALLY IN THESE RAW, VULNERABLE TIMES that I remember how much love and support I have in the world and in my friends circle. I remember how important transparency and vulnerability is because we are all struggling in different ways and going through different situations simultaneously. It is so important to reach out when we feel alone in the world and suicidal. 

That is something I have no problem doing……but with the worldly events I felt everyone was so Challenged that  my cries for help would just echo into the wind and blow away. So over these last 2 years so I stopped reaching out and sat in my suffering. 

Until I once again smash into a new rock bottom and feel cornered with nowhere to go, but into the arms of another. And I’m reminded once again, I DO love people. I love my friends. I love my family. I love my Facebook supporters and I love KINDNESS. I LOVE COMING BACK TOGETHER. I love remembering that we are all one big earth family & kindness is the glue that brings us back and holds us together. 

And speaking of family. MY FATHER DIED just a couple days ago on 7/27. So I am reminded of this more than ever. I didn’t get to see him or hug him before he transitioned, but I got to speak on the phone to him 2 days before which I am grateful for.

 I UNFORTUNATELY WAS TOO SICK MYSELF to be able to make it home to Montana in time to see him. I have been struggling with full body lesions, large painful bumps on my neck & scalp along w/highly intense neck joint &  spinal pain, my lymph nodes all over my body are swelled and fighting a gnarly infection. And after many years researching &  learning about holistic & natural healing, I discovered that oxygen treatments paired w/ fasting can  help heal all of these things exponentially faster than western medicine. 

Sooooo with that said, I’ve attempted 1000 times to FAST but as many know, I live & travel in a short school bus ART CAR & the sensory stimulation haS made it nearly impossible for me to handle the fast, as  I become more and more sensitive to noise & people. Iv been thrown into panic by sirens and motorcycles recently. 

And honestly, at first, I felt silly unloading my problems onto the world but I also realized, I didn’t ask for any of this suffering & right as the bad news piled on top of each other to the sky, and I thought I was at a breaking point where I couldn’t handle anymore…..my dad died. I have still not fully processed this because I need to heal myself so I don’t die. I need to heal myself so I can help others that are suicidal and suffering in deep depression and feeling hopeless. I am here to be of service. I am a powerful healer but in order to be of service fully and lend my healing hands to t he world….. 

I MUST HEAL ME FIRST! 

Please help me heal. Help me get out of this dark place so I can spread light to the world once again. I am so sad I couldn’t get to my dad to help him in time but I am doing this to not o my help myself and help the world but to honor the brilliant and legendary man that was Mike Chaet. 

I promise dad, I will write a story that the world will not forget. 

I’ll MAKE YOU PROUD!  ✍