Help A Depressed Transgender Save For Surgery

I’m a twenty-year-old trans man/male; I’m trying to make my way in this world, but the situation I’m in, the mounting prejudice around me, in addition to my severe depression, anxiety and neurodivergence make it hard to find motivation.

I live in the South, so living as openly-trans is hard; my family and extended family barely support that I'm trans. In fact, most of them don't believe me. I have one LGBT+ friend nearby, but no LGBT+ support network.

I take medication for my depression and anxiety, but in a few months, on my twenty-first birthday, I will no longer have access to my parents' insurance, so I will no longer be able to take it. My new job doesn’t pay me enough for me to afford insurance on anything.

I went to school for [medical] data entry, but, as it turns out, no organizations or offices will hire me, because I don’t have the experience. They won’t hire me because I don’t have experience, but I can’t get experience unless somebody gives me a chance and hires me.

I’ve had to return to retail; retail work messed me up so badly the first time, I started seeing and hearing things. This new job pays even less than my old one.

Dad is the only one who has the time to teach me to drive; because of the autism and attention-deficit, it’s taken me much longer to learn. Aside from that, being around my Dad can be draining, so I often disassociate while he’s teaching me.

I feel incompetent. The only thing I can do, writing, I no longer have the energy or motivation to do. I feel like the soul has been sucked out of me. I can barely sit up if I'm not leaning on myself or a surface behind me.

The idea of transitioning is the only thing keeping me alive; with Trump winning, with no money, no insurance, no money for insurance, no access to transition care, and no LGBT+ support network, I struggle to see a future. I can’t live if I can’t transition.

Anything helps. Seriously.