A Malleable Future
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My name is Conner, I’m 20 years old and come from a line of compounded generational trauma and young parents. I’ve experienced parental infidelity, manipulation, deceit, alcoholism, opioid addiction, domestic abuse for years, an array of undiagnosed personality disorders, tense familial relationships, neglect, I’ve been juggled by numerous adult figures and never had a stable support system. I’m still learning things I should have learned years ago. I was taught not to talk to mandated reporters, so when I was supposed to be seeking help and resources, I was inadvertently setting myself behind. I was taught not to trust the healthcare industry, not to trust people, each parent taught me that the other was worse. Never tell anyone what’s going on. I’ve still yet to establish any 100% healthy relationships in my life and/or support systems, no safety net. I’ve yet to fully process any of the events that happened to me when I was young. I wasn’t taught how to save money and I didn’t fully grasp how much things cost until I had thrown myself into an apartment and bills. I have been unable to get and keep a car, I do not make enough to finance. I should have been saving for years before I moved out on my own but lesson learned. I was essentially an adult by the age of 12 but hadn’t been taught or realized the actual complexity of problems to come as an adult. My head is scattered all over the place and I’m processing things and emotions I’ve not processed before at twenty years of age, whilst trying to juggle bills, credit, save money for a car, maintain my health, have healthy food going into my body, maintain sobriety, maintain relationships, keep a job, transportation for said job and sort out a path I want to take in regards to my future. This money is intended to help start a small business so I can have passive income and not have to work so I can focus on my bigger issues; lightening the financial burden so I can prioritize mental health. I want a peaceful, happy, fulfilling, meaningful life.
From my own personal experience, I’ve been taught and learned that more often than not, asking for money is wrong and puts you in a bad light, and you tend to get the opposite of what you wish. I am not asking for money, but an investment in the future of a bright young kid you may or may not have seen potential in. Or a gamble on a dumb-idiot kid who’s made terrible decisions. I am taking a risk towards my self-image in posting this, but it is a risk I am willing to take in order to secure a better future for myself.
It would be a risk for you to send some money to a kid you know not very well, but it would be also be risk to invest in a kid you think you know extremely well. I have had tons of help throughout my life to now, and I am sure I will have tons more, I am a very fortunate kid. I most definitely could keep sacrificing my health working one two or three jobs but I’ve been sacrificing my health and mental health for my entire life just to survive and get ahead of the hand I’ve been dealt. I’m not entirely sure I could get where I’d like to be without some extra help.
The idea is to source innovative and creative kitchenware to an online website and brand some of the products, then market and advertise them in the local restaurant community. These would be tools and gadgets that would solve at least two common Back-of-house issues in an unsaturated area. I’ve branding and logo set up, money will go into marketing and manufacturing to get the ball rolling on sales. Later down the line I’d brand all of the products, get my feet in the door with local retail and grocery stores, and continue to develop new products and quality items.
Thanks!
My name is Conner, I’m 20 years old and come from a line of compounded generational trauma and young parents. I’ve experienced parental infidelity, manipulation, deceit, alcoholism, opioid addiction, domestic abuse for years, an array of undiagnosed personality disorders, tense familial relationships, neglect, I’ve been juggled by numerous adult figures and never had a stable support system. I’m still learning things I should have learned years ago. I was taught not to talk to mandated reporters, so when I was supposed to be seeking help and resources, I was inadvertently setting myself behind. I was taught not to trust the healthcare industry, not to trust people, each parent taught me that the other was worse. Never tell anyone what’s going on. I’ve still yet to establish any 100% healthy relationships in my life and/or support systems, no safety net. I’ve yet to fully process any of the events that happened to me when I was young. I wasn’t taught how to save money and I didn’t fully grasp how much things cost until I had thrown myself into an apartment and bills. I have been unable to get and keep a car, I do not make enough to finance. I should have been saving for years before I moved out on my own but lesson learned. I was essentially an adult by the age of 12 but hadn’t been taught or realized the actual complexity of problems to come as an adult. My head is scattered all over the place and I’m processing things and emotions I’ve not processed before at twenty years of age, whilst trying to juggle bills, credit, save money for a car, maintain my health, have healthy food going into my body, maintain sobriety, maintain relationships, keep a job, transportation for said job and sort out a path I want to take in regards to my future. This money is intended to help start a small business so I can have passive income and not have to work so I can focus on my bigger issues; lightening the financial burden so I can prioritize mental health. I want a peaceful, happy, fulfilling, meaningful life.
From my own personal experience, I’ve been taught and learned that more often than not, asking for money is wrong and puts you in a bad light, and you tend to get the opposite of what you wish. I am not asking for money, but an investment in the future of a bright young kid you may or may not have seen potential in. Or a gamble on a dumb-idiot kid who’s made terrible decisions. I am taking a risk towards my self-image in posting this, but it is a risk I am willing to take in order to secure a better future for myself.
It would be a risk for you to send some money to a kid you know not very well, but it would be also be risk to invest in a kid you think you know extremely well. I have had tons of help throughout my life to now, and I am sure I will have tons more, I am a very fortunate kid. I most definitely could keep sacrificing my health working one two or three jobs but I’ve been sacrificing my health and mental health for my entire life just to survive and get ahead of the hand I’ve been dealt. I’m not entirely sure I could get where I’d like to be without some extra help.
The idea is to source innovative and creative kitchenware to an online website and brand some of the products, then market and advertise them in the local restaurant community. These would be tools and gadgets that would solve at least two common Back-of-house issues in an unsaturated area. I’ve branding and logo set up, money will go into marketing and manufacturing to get the ball rolling on sales. Later down the line I’d brand all of the products, get my feet in the door with local retail and grocery stores, and continue to develop new products and quality items.
Thanks!
Organizer
Conner Sweeney
Organizer
Burlington, VT