A son's cry for help

Hi. My name is Daniel. I am 38 years old. My life was amazing until a minor surgery and the medication given to me for it, began my hellish marriage to opiates. It wasn’t long before I was injecting heroin and cocaine multiple times a day. My life has become something that I am completely ashamed of. I want to live and to do so I need your help. A little background about me. I was raised in a middle class family, straight A student in high school, kind and compassionate. A writer and an artist. I went to college on scholarships and have one semester to complete in English/Journalism and have a 3.9 GPA. As a Michigan Medicaid recipient I was on a 12 month wait list for an inpatient rehab but was denied access at the last minute while struggling through months of dangerous homeless life. This broke me. I have basically coasted near rock bottom, begging strangers for change and holding cardboard signs, as well as digging through and eating trash. I have done unimaginable things, just to stay alive. In high school and college I was good at sports and I had friends. None of this matters now. 

 

Here is my plan which was set in motion Wednesday, November 17, 2021

 

I will be undergoing a Methadone Detoxification program. The length of the treatment is between 14 and 21 days (dependent on how my body reacts to the process). 

 

Once I have a clean detox I will be transported Charleston, SC for my rehabilitation and undergo an integrative treatment program. While in the program I will have a Primary Therapist, Psychiatrist, Case Manager, and a Recovery Coach. Lantana Recovery offers a three-phase process to help me get healthy.

 

I want so badly to not be dependent on anything or anyone. This is so difficult to ask for help but I have met a dead end-I’m losing my will to live. If I could afford treatment I stand a chance at rebuilding my life. Please help me feed and water all that is good in me. I cannot make it on my own.

 

I hope that you can help by donating to my GoFundMe so that I can receive treatment. I know that I am asking a lot of you. This is so hard. I have been working on a book and have the goal of getting healthy so that I can assist others through this disease with more dignity than I have experienced. My mom tells me that I have a heart of gold but, a very sick brain. I believe my life has value, and I appreciate all the help you can afford. Please enjoy your life. It is a gift!!!

Sincerely and quite desperately yours,

Daniel Ver Meulen