After 9 Years in bizz I will have to shut down

Hello friends & family, I am sad to say , but held up by my ego and pride too long and too late to ask for any kind of help. Because I thought I was going to make it through. " If I just held on one more day, if I just waited another hour, maybe tomorrow," but it seems that tomorrow is fast approaching with no promises, or compromises, or rescue, or a check, to alleviate some of this melancholy dead weight of bills and suicidal thoughts of drowning my unsuccessful life. Which as a grownup we all have a hard time asking for any kind of help. Well at least I was, because I'm the type of person that believes, " if you just hold on one more day, and I don't like to worry people for no reason. My problems are my problems, everything is fine, everything is great." And Ive juggled the books so many times that the truth just seeps out from every nook and cranny, the water bills, the gas, bills, the electric bills, the credit card bills, the vet bills, the rent is due again already?... But I'm still behind from 3 months ago. And now the eviction letter starts, but these are not the fake eviction letters, these are the real eviction letters that has a real sherriff coming on what day? It's getting real, it's gotten real, it is for real. My last event on the books id this Saturday February 10th, 2024. I will not be able to take in any further parties or events because I will soon loose my home, which I've turned into a work and live type of situation home. Without it goes the kitchen and everything I worked so hard to build. So I ask you to please help me keep running. 9 years doesn't seem long enough, I was hoping to make it to 10 years at least. Or maybe 15 years, one can only dream. Please help me raise 4 months of backed rent plus legal fees the building has slapped on an extra $500 a month. I have recited and worked from this place for the past 3 years. With rent never late, always on time or even early, because I was consistently working. November was the first month missed, then came December, and January, and now February.

I have cooked for many celebrities, producers, writers, people in the industry, and yet I have nothing to show for it. Every cent I made went to this over priced rent. My current rent is $3,500 for a one bedroom in Hollywood at The Ava Hollywood Apartments. I knew I was hitting hard times and so I asked for a lower rent, or to bring it down to market value, to which thye offered to lower my rent a whopping $60. That was a win I suppose. I got rid of storage, I got rid of my second car, I started to sell some of my CB2 furniture which I am sad to see it go. Lamps, chairs, end tables, side tables, mirrors, knickm kncaks, things that I don't really need but was nice to have owned it once upon a dream. And this dream is ending.

On top of all this I recently got sick with a lung infection that has given me laryngitis and currently don't have a voicebox to speak or sound doesn't even equate. And I have no health insurance, I know play me a sad violin song, I'm an adult I should be able to take care of these things, Except its hard when money is not rolling in to pay for those necessities. So I hunt down the black market for some antibiotics, which I find except its the wrong kind, and still no voice, but at least STD free. HELP!!!! SOS means someone help me! Thank you for taking the time to read my crazy thoughts.

-Chef Injae