Amanda's Fight for a Fresh Start

Hi my name is Amanda I am needing help with getting on my feet again after unfortunate events in my life. I have since changed my heart and ways. I was a young single mother for quite some time when I could no longer support my children on my own, their father was abusive and was in and out of prison. So my wonderful mother offered for me to move in with her . So I did and things were going very good. Then my stepfather died suddenly in an atv accident. So my mother became a single mother as well. As she had me and my children and my two sisters to Care for. So we all ended up moving to the city where there was more employment opportunities for us. Well we all ended up getting jobs and things were going well. My mother ended up meeting and having a relationship with a man she met. We all thought he was a good guy as he would go to church with us. To our devastation he ended up murdering her by Stabbing her in the heart and he stabbed her with such force her heart was cut in half. This was such a terrible time for our family as she was such a wonderful mother and grandma she would have done anything for us!!! Our family ended up having to separate due to financial circumstances. I started getting on my feet again and was doing OK. Then to my utter devastation again my daughter gets hit by a car while crossing the street and dies in the hospital. I fell into a bad place in my life again, you see before all these events took place I had been diagnosed with being Seriously Mentally ill a title 19. So I had gotten even worse after these events. I started getting better and working and getting myself together again. When yet again another tradegedy struck my sister took her life with a shotgun in a storage unit. This definitely hit hard. So I kinda lost control of things again. I am now working again and things are not as great as I am now homeless living in a car rental until I can save up enough money to put down for my own place again. I'm not someone who usually asks for help.. Its just this has. All been very unbelievably horrible. The only thing getting me through is my belief in God!!! I'm just asking for help with the move in deposit to an apartment or house rental. As I am so tired of not being able to take a proper shower or sleep in a proper bed, or make a home cooked meal. I am trying my best out here in these city streets but I think I really need some help this time. So if anyone could help with anything it would be so appreciated respected and loved. Thank you for taking the time to read my request for help. God bless you.