Amara Healing Support
Amara has received a diagnosis of a rare and aggressive form of breast cancer. All donations will be used in support of Amara's healing -- everything from co-pays and healer contributions to food and herbs to places to stay near the hospital and recovery spaces and all the million things that come up when you're on a journey like this. Probably some amount of chocolate.
Below is a note from them in their own words.
Please share this widely and give what you're capable of, if it's a dollar or two, or a thousand or two. Also, her preference is that when we talk about this we say, "Amara is working with a breast cancer diagnosis," as opposed to "Amara has breast cancer."
Finally, you can keep updated on Amara's healing journey by going to www.templeofthewaters.org/mailing-list and entering your information there. Blessings -- Iridaea
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my dear friends and loved ones,
i write this to you all to share that on monday, i was diagnosed with triple negative apocrine invasive ductal carcinoma present in my right breast. this is a rare and aggressive form of breast cancer. which i guess is a fitting type cuz i’m a rare and tenacious witch.
i’ve known of this lump for a while and have been working with it in different ways and over the last many months if you’ve noticed that i’ve been less in touch than you’d expect it’s because i’ve been totally absorbed in this process already and have been pretty paralyzed by fear. fear of not just cancer but of medical intervention and abuse. i’m really scared. more recently, i have begun to experience more consistent pain. i don’t know what the outcomes will be but i know that i will need a lot of support throughout it all. i really wanted to get pregnant with a baby this year and this is a fucked up turn.
i’m writing this to all of you who i believe would want to be a part of this process in any sort of way, with the intention to bring everyone together through text and email groups to support me and support each other, and share updates.
some of the immediate things are: today i met with the surgical specialist who first ordered the biopsy, dr. palmer, in eureka, CA today. based on the size and risk, he wants to operate to remove the tumor immediately. we have set a date for may 28th.
as of now the plan will be to recover at Fancy Land, queer land on redwood creek- off highway 96 between the coast and willow creek. there is an off-grid lodge with guest cabin and space for camping. we can be there til june 13. coordinating that will come soon from someone.
i’m in shock and yet i have known of this lump for months and have already been working with it in many ways and had thought that yes i would accept surgery though i WAS pretty stoked on dissolving it with poke root and blood root... and those plant medicines will still come into play as the process continues but in different ways.
this surgeon tells me “then ya do radiation for 6 weeks after.” i will be declining this form of treatment and supporting my body to heal and remove the remaining cells in other ways. i don’t know all those ways yet. but i have some ideas.
there are a bunch of things i’m going to need.
in the immediate days:
people who can be with me and each other before, during and after the surgery process. i want to feel taken care of, held in a healing space, with access to skillful spaceholders so i can rest, recover, freak out, cry, rant, heal.
i will need a combo of people who can hold a healing space that can tolerate my intense virgo micro managing dominance trip to make it safe enough for me to let that go and trust and heal. aka people who can top me as much as i top them, and tune in to which is needed when.
-i’ll need support with healthy and specific meals
-errand runners
-medical advocates
-puppy entertainers (for my puppy)
-people with good jokes and songs
-body/energy work
-spaceholders
-people who are really good at holding me strongly and softly and getting me to cry cuz that’s hard and important
-people to tell/show me they love me in unique and consistent ways
-logistic queens for:
* finding places that can host me in a healing space and the caretakers
*co-ordinating visits and rides
*delegating tasks
*fundraising for medical costs
*organizing emails and phone calls and texts to share updates etc
*ideally have a few different types of lists- local people, food-stuff, general updates, coordinating folks from away to come etc.
*other logistical things and brilliant ideas i can’t even think of yet so please step up if you know things i don’t
there is going to be more, please just think about what you can offer and begin to organize within yourself and amongst yourselves- i’ll get totally overwhelmed if a bunch of people reply and tell me what they’re gonna do. i absolutely want to hear your support and love right now. i also super encourage mad research about this type of cancer specifically related to natural methods of healing, but again, please refrain from sharing with me right now cuz it’ll be a lot. but get acquainted with that shit, please. look for practitioners. find badass stories, be ready to share when i need it. please, do not encourage me to go for chemo or radiation with the threat of death or pain or your fear for my life. i am not afraid of death or pain. please protect me from this mindset, it’s not welcome.
there are already people emerging into these roles which i’m sure will grow and shift. i would love to be able to surrender to you all as much as possible so that i can enter into a place that allows my innate healing to come through.
i call upon us to create a healing space for me and for each other. let me be the centre in a matrix of healing; love each other, feed each other, bathe, nourish, caress, massage, take care of each other and let that be the radiance that supports us all and supports me. let us sing and speak with our queer magic, in healing and darkness and surrender and passion; live and breathe into that, through all of our cells. let me drink from these cauldrons. though i know there will be stress and pain and chaos at times, and i do very much ask to be shielded from it- i invoke a healing space into every thread of this web, for my beloved friends to be held within this as well.
though i have been diagnosed with this really intense cancer all the faeries and witches and queens and healers are coming together and we are all going to take care of each other like we need to. i’m the dark earth goddess theyself and we all need to heal each other and the earth together and we can do that through me and with me and through each other and with each other. and i get to be boss queen receptive healing bitch in the centre of a circle right now ! a centre of many concentric circles with many centres. mother knows i will be bestowing this healing upon all beings. an altar of my body. snow white meets dark mother meets amara hollow bones. coming to a fancy land near you.
Below is a note from them in their own words.
Please share this widely and give what you're capable of, if it's a dollar or two, or a thousand or two. Also, her preference is that when we talk about this we say, "Amara is working with a breast cancer diagnosis," as opposed to "Amara has breast cancer."
Finally, you can keep updated on Amara's healing journey by going to www.templeofthewaters.org/mailing-list and entering your information there. Blessings -- Iridaea
**********
my dear friends and loved ones,
i write this to you all to share that on monday, i was diagnosed with triple negative apocrine invasive ductal carcinoma present in my right breast. this is a rare and aggressive form of breast cancer. which i guess is a fitting type cuz i’m a rare and tenacious witch.
i’ve known of this lump for a while and have been working with it in different ways and over the last many months if you’ve noticed that i’ve been less in touch than you’d expect it’s because i’ve been totally absorbed in this process already and have been pretty paralyzed by fear. fear of not just cancer but of medical intervention and abuse. i’m really scared. more recently, i have begun to experience more consistent pain. i don’t know what the outcomes will be but i know that i will need a lot of support throughout it all. i really wanted to get pregnant with a baby this year and this is a fucked up turn.
i’m writing this to all of you who i believe would want to be a part of this process in any sort of way, with the intention to bring everyone together through text and email groups to support me and support each other, and share updates.
some of the immediate things are: today i met with the surgical specialist who first ordered the biopsy, dr. palmer, in eureka, CA today. based on the size and risk, he wants to operate to remove the tumor immediately. we have set a date for may 28th.
as of now the plan will be to recover at Fancy Land, queer land on redwood creek- off highway 96 between the coast and willow creek. there is an off-grid lodge with guest cabin and space for camping. we can be there til june 13. coordinating that will come soon from someone.
i’m in shock and yet i have known of this lump for months and have already been working with it in many ways and had thought that yes i would accept surgery though i WAS pretty stoked on dissolving it with poke root and blood root... and those plant medicines will still come into play as the process continues but in different ways.
this surgeon tells me “then ya do radiation for 6 weeks after.” i will be declining this form of treatment and supporting my body to heal and remove the remaining cells in other ways. i don’t know all those ways yet. but i have some ideas.
there are a bunch of things i’m going to need.
in the immediate days:
people who can be with me and each other before, during and after the surgery process. i want to feel taken care of, held in a healing space, with access to skillful spaceholders so i can rest, recover, freak out, cry, rant, heal.
i will need a combo of people who can hold a healing space that can tolerate my intense virgo micro managing dominance trip to make it safe enough for me to let that go and trust and heal. aka people who can top me as much as i top them, and tune in to which is needed when.
-i’ll need support with healthy and specific meals
-errand runners
-medical advocates
-puppy entertainers (for my puppy)
-people with good jokes and songs
-body/energy work
-spaceholders
-people who are really good at holding me strongly and softly and getting me to cry cuz that’s hard and important
-people to tell/show me they love me in unique and consistent ways
-logistic queens for:
* finding places that can host me in a healing space and the caretakers
*co-ordinating visits and rides
*delegating tasks
*fundraising for medical costs
*organizing emails and phone calls and texts to share updates etc
*ideally have a few different types of lists- local people, food-stuff, general updates, coordinating folks from away to come etc.
*other logistical things and brilliant ideas i can’t even think of yet so please step up if you know things i don’t
there is going to be more, please just think about what you can offer and begin to organize within yourself and amongst yourselves- i’ll get totally overwhelmed if a bunch of people reply and tell me what they’re gonna do. i absolutely want to hear your support and love right now. i also super encourage mad research about this type of cancer specifically related to natural methods of healing, but again, please refrain from sharing with me right now cuz it’ll be a lot. but get acquainted with that shit, please. look for practitioners. find badass stories, be ready to share when i need it. please, do not encourage me to go for chemo or radiation with the threat of death or pain or your fear for my life. i am not afraid of death or pain. please protect me from this mindset, it’s not welcome.
there are already people emerging into these roles which i’m sure will grow and shift. i would love to be able to surrender to you all as much as possible so that i can enter into a place that allows my innate healing to come through.
i call upon us to create a healing space for me and for each other. let me be the centre in a matrix of healing; love each other, feed each other, bathe, nourish, caress, massage, take care of each other and let that be the radiance that supports us all and supports me. let us sing and speak with our queer magic, in healing and darkness and surrender and passion; live and breathe into that, through all of our cells. let me drink from these cauldrons. though i know there will be stress and pain and chaos at times, and i do very much ask to be shielded from it- i invoke a healing space into every thread of this web, for my beloved friends to be held within this as well.
though i have been diagnosed with this really intense cancer all the faeries and witches and queens and healers are coming together and we are all going to take care of each other like we need to. i’m the dark earth goddess theyself and we all need to heal each other and the earth together and we can do that through me and with me and through each other and with each other. and i get to be boss queen receptive healing bitch in the centre of a circle right now ! a centre of many concentric circles with many centres. mother knows i will be bestowing this healing upon all beings. an altar of my body. snow white meets dark mother meets amara hollow bones. coming to a fancy land near you.
Organiser
Temple of the Waters
Organiser
Santa Cruz, CA