Anderson Family Recovery Effort

On June 11th, 2019 the love of my life Katherine Rebecca Anderson (nee Allen) passed away peacefully in her sleep. Our son was just a few days shy of turning 9 months old. There is so much indescribable pain I could try to talk about, but the truth is it hurt me in ways I don't know I'll ever recover from. We'd had a wonderful relationship, we were best friends and she constantly inspired me to try to be a better man so I could give her all I thought she deserved. I took as much time as I could from work, and was unable to ever secure pay for that time away. By the time my leave was up I was still too terrified to return though. I typically worked 60 hour weeks, and the only shifts available to me were either beginning at 4am or 2pm. All I knew at that point was my wife had lived her life for the sake of creating another, and she had been the most amazing mother anyone could ever ask for. And I could not return to work doing what I did, leaving our sons only parent constantly absent for work. I don't have all the answers to my future for now. I have to find a way to eventually live and support my son, our two dogs Sawyer and Morgan, and myself. For now I am living with my parents, so we are provided for. I've never been able to ask for help easily, it's humiliating and shameful to me. But for the sake of my family I will swallow my pride and ask for help. The amount I have put as a goal represents the sum total of all my bills, but honestly as long as I could pay off minimums it would be a life saver. I'm still 5 months out with no sign of a completed report from the Medical Examiners office. Not only does that have an emotional toll, but it means I have an incomplete death certificate. And that means no benefits, no social security, and none of the sadly-too-small life insurance policy. I racked up as much credit card debt as I could to this point. I'm about to lose cell phone service as well, which will impede my only current method of making any income. In desperation and humility, I will ask friends, family, strangers, any and all... If you can help me salvage my current crisis I will be eternally in your debt, as well for our precious son and dogs. I need to erase the debt I've accumulated before interest rates raise any more, or my credit drops even further. I don't want to ask for hand outs, just a chance to not fall any further behind than I did when I was at my lowest. Thank you for taking the time to read, and I appreciate any support, financially or otherwise.