Attie Needs Help to Keep the Lights on for a Brighter Future

The cats pictured here are Koga (grey tabby) and Noodle (the void), my little companions. I'm Natalie, I go by Attie for short, and I'm trying to move out of Texas within the next month. I struggle immensely with my mental health, and thusly I'm currently unemployed (working on changing that) and my retirement and savings have run dry. I have a month of rent left to take care of on my current lease, and I need to keep the lights on until then and I'm already behind. To help me make it through the month and afford moving costs to get out of Texas and to my next destination in Virginia, I'm requesting a humble loan from anyone willing and able to help a friend out.

For any that know me that I can arrange repayment, I have full intention of repaying your contributions here, so PLEASE, for the sake of my mental health against the guilt and shame I have from doing this, please don't contribute anonymously so I can repay you. I will feel so much better about your help if you let me do so. I'm not sure how best to repay kind strangers that happen upon this page, but I'll happily try to arrange a means of repayment if possible.

Why am I in this mess? Mental health reasons, primarily. I struggle with a severe anxiety disorder, major depression, ADHD, and have been in and out of intensive care for SI and SH over the last several years. I was in a work environment, as an IT tech, that really caused me to struggle with management and department that made work extremely stressful and contentious. I was extemely burnt out and executively fully dysfunctional to the point I didn't feel good about my work or productivity and wasn't fit to keep working. I budgeted a time I could leave that would coincide with my Texit timeframe, but unfortunately, between a few unexpected expensive vet visits and a rash decision to leave my job a month or 2 earlier than I was originally planning (while still mathing a budget I thought could make it), I'm unfortunately regretful I didn't wait that one or 2 more months...

I don't seem to have many other options as I can't get unemployment or disabilities and finding a job again is taking quite a bit of time. I am very humbly and graciously requesting for help from friends and those willing to help me get over this hump. If you are capable of helping without stress to yourself, I will extremely appreciate your contributions, I will do my best to get it back to you as quickly as possible, but understand it might be a minute until I'm back on my feet again depending on how quick I can land myself new income and hopefully a career change.

For all who read this and donate, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I will do my utmost to repay your kindness.