Help Austen make Art and fight discrimination against men!

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Hi, my name is Austen Messick. I take care of my mother who is transitioning into a care facility. I was sexually abused. Because of the severity of what I went through as a child. I have been trauma celibate for my whole adult life. I never talked about it. I suppressed all this trauma.

A year ago, I stopped suppressing and went into treatment only to be put into a dangerous situation that would have never happened if the genders were reversed.

I won't go into details. I have written enough details about this situation. I don't care. I was unwillingly involved in a weirdo love triangle between a sex-addict and her cop boyfriend. It turned to stalking and police harassment.

This situation has made me feel unsafe. I tried to provoke a response because I believe they were following me on Twitter. Reading everything I wrote on a 40 follower account. I began using her full legal name, occupation and place of work. I did this to provoke a response, so, I could counter and get closure.

I had 40 followers. They had to search for what I was saying about them. I was so isolated by my stalker that I proposed to my stalker. I made my stalker a ring with a laxative pill as the stone. A stalker ring.

I have made a "stalker ring." I have made a mixtape. I have made a tractor beam. I have made deviant art Christmas cards. I have made "art memes" from phone photography that I want to translate into the real world in mixed media. This is all in the past 3 months. I am ready to start churning out work. I need help because I am behind on bills and I am afraid to leave the house.

I made my stalker a mixtape. I posted online about it (she doesn't and can't follow me on twitter). She reads everything I write online. The jealous cop followed me on twitter, I believe. Whoever that person was, they were a cop that wrote about violent mob justice frequently.

This situation should have never been allowed to get this far, though. A sex addict should not be allowed to behave that way with a client. This should have been stopped by her employer before it got to stalking.

I wan to take responsibility for things I did wrong or wrong thinking. I am a 41 year old virgin. I am also an artist. So, I am romantic. I thought we were soulmates. I really did. This was so delusional, I don't know where to begin. I feel so bad about that. It supercharged everything. I feel so bad about that. She isn't my soulmate. She isn't special to me. She just inspired me for a while. I need to find another muse. I mistook a minor muse for a soulmate. It was deeply delusional of me to do that.

I have a court-date on Feb 3. I will be not showing to this court-appearance in protest of the discrimination that is the root cause of this entire situation. I have no hard feeling to my stalker or her policeman jealous lover. I hope they are happy together and spend the rest of their life together. He should get her a nice ring. She's a real catch.

I have been remixing some photos and shit I made during this whole situation. The idea is to take these "memes" that I make on my phone and translate them into the real world in mixed media. I want it to look l like a sign or something. Super hard edges and clean. Super clean. Almost looks like it was made by a machine.

I am my mother's caretaker until she goes into a care facility. I am not a bad guy. I am unwell. I need treatment but I am having difficulty trusting any treatment after my experience from my first round of treatment. Discrimination overlooked to the point of claims of stalking and harassment on both sides.

The pictures I am sharing on here are badly cropped for gofundme. I don't like them the way they are. I will make a separate gallery with all them somewhere.

I have to figure that out, though. PLEASE HELP ME MAKE ART AND SURVIVE. This has been an awful situation. I was heartbroken and discriminated against. It was a really tricky knot of very negative and painful emotions to untangle.

It has been a struggle to work. I am behind on bills. I need help. If you can help. I will continue to make art.

I have a "Tractor-Beam" project that I need to buy materials for. I also have those mixed media projects I want to start working on.

Any additional help beyond catching me up on bills will be used for art materials. Thanks so much. Follow me on twitter. https://x.com/AustenMessick

I know I sound crazy. I am unwell, obviously. I have delusional thoughts but I know they are delusional. So, they are either speculations or fantasies.