Behind $300 for Dec rent, $600 for Jan's & bills

Hi everyone, it's your favorite waste of space!

I was hoping to avoid having to do another fundraiser this year, that one of the few jobs I actually got an interview for this month would turn into something, but none of them have panned out (with the usual no communication until I eventually get a rejection letter).

I'm as sick of begging for help as you are seeing me do so!

Between end-of-month bills (with my gas bill being charged twice and people's gas not being able to refund one of those payments since I'm already in arrears with them), and having the gall to go get groceries this weekend, I'm currently behind $300 on December 1st's rent payment. My new landlords are also very adamant about receiving payments on the 1st, vs my previous landlord being willing to work with me.

In addition, just to avoid having another fundraiser between this one and the end of the year, I will also need $600 to cover rent for the first of January/next year, and my half of bills (gas, electric, internet, plus full cellphone). This is all before I'd factor in groceries, and I have completely given up on being able to even get myself something for my upcoming birthday (Nov 26), let alone christmas.

If I even make it that far. I have not been doing well mentally the last month, and would not be surprised if I'm not here in a month at this rate.