Blake's emergency moving fundraiser

Hi, I'm Blake. A transwoman living in London, Ontario.

Recently I've been battling a flare up of a chronic pain condition that makes walking extremely hard.

On top of funds for my physiotherapy and chiropractor appointments in hopes of getting some relief in the middle of a 16 month wait period to see a neurologist. Something more serious has come up.

I have been dealing with a really hostile living environment for a while now. Including lots of yelling, general verbal abuse, and my things being stolen or broken.

It's now come to a breaking point where despite being a victim of this abusive behavior, my landlord sent everyone involved behavior warning documents, including me. Basically this means that if something else bad happens, he is likely going to send me an eviction notice.

Yesterday one of my roommates felt it necessary to physically prevent me from leaving the kitchen, while yelling at me, berating me, punching a hole in the wall, and threatening to "beat the shit out of me". All of this because I had moved their finished laundry over (without actually starting it). Not only is this extremely common for everyone in the house to do. But I don't think it's appropriate to do any of the above just because somebody touched your laundry...

This was really traumatic for me and honestly I'm at a loss for what to do. It feels like anything could set them off.

I had to quit my job in the summer and a week ago I had to defer my college course because my chronic pain condition is so bad that most days walking is extremely difficult and it takes an hour of physio every morning to even be functioning. My only saving grace is since sitting down isn't as painful, I'm still able to play the drums despite having lost some feeling in my one leg.

All of this combined with the fact that I grew up in foster care, means that I both don't really have anywhere to go, and my income is entirely reliant on children's aid. (Soon to be ODSP I hope). My home is here and there is no home to go back to and no immediate family to support me.

I have extended family that have helped me in the past but our relationship has been a bit different since I came out as transgender to them years ago. So while it's not true to say I have 0 family, and 0 support. My parents have been dead for quite some time and all things considered nobody there is really obligated to help me. I'm also not really in contact with them much at all. So all that is super up in the air currently. Apologies if that's worded strangely, my family dynamic is very confusing even for me. I love them, but we just don't talk much at all.

Having said all of that, this is why I've decided to start a gofundme. If my landlord is going to send me an N5 for being a victim in these situations, my housing situation is no longer guaranteed. And I'm physically incapable of working and getting the money for first and last myself. So I've decided to bite the bullet and ask for help so that I can finally move and have a peaceful living situation.

I'm genuinely scared to even leave my room to make coffee or make food, because I don't want to risk being my volatile roommates emotional punching bag. I'm scared I'm going to be put in another situation where despite my roommate yelling at me and punching holes in the wall that I'll be evicted for just being a victim of it. I'm scared I might be put in a situation where I'm homeless and couch surfing again. I built myself out of that with the help of my friends and I don't want to go back. This entire situation is genuinely insane and above all I can't believe my landlord has threatened to evict me over the actions of my roommate, which I cannot control. It makes zero sense to me but regardless this is what has happened.

I know first and last is asking a lot, especially in these times. But I'm greatly appreciative of literally anything right now. Any and all funds raised will just be going into my savings with the goal of being able to save enough to move out and into a stable and safe living environment.