Bring Titan Back to His Loving Family

Hi, my name is Peace,

I am on my knees begging the universe to help me with restoring my relationship with my 6-year-old son, Titan, with myself and his 3 siblings. Originally from California, all my children grew up with me as a full-time mom in the SF Bay Area. There, I ran a nonprofit and small animal sanctuary: my kids grew up every day with home-cooked meals, rabbits, chickens, a pig, and even a sheep! They had an idyllic life playing in the creek, going to parks, and living their best day every day. We learned sign language together, and for a time, I worked part-time as a teacher where I could bring my kids to work. Despite me being a single mom, we had a very happy life.

Everything changed in 2020 when Titan's dad, who had abandoned us as soon as he found out I was pregnant, came back into our lives with a highly paid lawyer and would continue to do everything he could to start legal drama. The exchanges and the tension grew for the whole family. Titan was only 2 years old and was having stress hives and rashes when he came back from his biological father's, whom he was just getting to know. Tears and fights were frequent as he didn't want to go to visits, and his naps were disrupted. Honestly, the separation from his mother and siblings was very hard for him as he was only 2 years old and didn't understand what was going on. He started to hit me and get mad at me that I was making him go on visits. It was the hardest nightmare that never went away.

I'm not sure if I ended up doing the right thing, but I was desperate. I had tried everything to make things better for my son, and his father would never compromise. I saw my young son tortured with the back-and-forth. I was also tortured watching him cry, and so were his siblings. Every attempt to fix things in court was a failure as I didn't have an attorney. So, I made the hardest decision I ever made and one I regret every day: I gave up custody of him to his father so I could move to Mississippi with my other kids, where I was able to finally purchase a home and hoped to have more support in raising my kids from extended family, plus be able to start my businesses, which I struggled to do in California due to financial barriers.

When I gave up custody of Titan, I assumed I would be able to see him on holidays and summer breaks, etc., and I, of course, planned on working to get custody of him again. But despite a 2022 court order for Titan to come visit me in such a manner, Titan's father has never let Titan come see me- he told the courts he feared I wouldn't make Titan wear a mask and that was his "justification" for withholding our son for years even after covid was over. And when the kids and I travel to California to see him, he often cancels visits. He has canceled our visits more times than I can count, and we have even flown to California to see him under mediation agreements, and we have had to return back to Mississippi without even seeing Titan for 5 minutes despite being in a hotel in his town for several days. Dad refuses to let us see him. He tells the courts I'm going to kidnap Titan even though I have never made such a suggestion. He just tries to make every step as hard as he can, and he has so far very much succeeded.

Sadly, his father has so much money that no matter what he does to violate the court order, his lawyer ensures he is never held accountable because I don't have a lawyer.

Titan is turning 7 now on December 31st, and his dad won't even give me the address of where they are staying so I can send a Christmas gift or a birthday gift. I am at my wit's end, and I have struggled with wanting to commit suicide over the last 4 years because I have missed him so badly, and no matter what I do, I can't seem to get him back into my life. The pain of missing him causes such depression that I experience physical pain in my chest, arms, neck, and face. The pain of worrying about my son and missing him is absolute agony every day, and it's impossible to live a normal life in this much pain. I did start a nonprofit a couple of months ago called MOMS LOVE, momslove.org, and this is my way of leaving a legacy for my son because MOMS LOVE offers a template for how to cope when you want to commit suicide. I hope that my suffering has taught me something that can help others and save lives. I refuse to let this trauma end in disaster: I WILL make something beautiful out of this pain, and I WILL restore our family and my 4 children back together. I pray that my time of waiting is nearing an end and resolution can come soon.

I qualified for a $1500 low-cost lawyer program that would get me 10 hours of legal help to file a new case to bring these issues to the court. I will need some additional to help me with travel costs to go to California and stay for court and visit with my son and any other appointments so I appreciate whatever support you can give me. I have begged for reunification therapy with my son for 4 years, and his father will never allow it. With a lawyer's help, I hope to succeed in getting reunification therapy so that Titan can be part of our lives again.