Help Secure Cecelia’s Future During My Fight Against Cancer

Plot twist of a lifetime……..

I have breast cancer that spread to my lymph nodes and throughout my bones.

The doctors have told us that there is no cure.

Good thing we believe in miracles….

I do not want to get into all the medical terms, timelines, treatment plans, etc, since focusing on that is not helpful for me. Whatever I focus on gets bigger and bigger, so I have been trying to focus on positive things and live in each moment.

I’m asking you to pray, pray hard, send positive vibes and good energy. Pray for my two year old sweetheart, Cecelia, pray for our family, and pray that no other woman or family has to feel these feels in the future.

Cecelia is the most amazing, kind, funny, and smart little angel face that you will ever meet. This girl brings an instant smile to everyone she meets. She is literally a miracle, walking around on Earth, born with a purpose.

The doctors believe I have had cancer since before I was pregnant with Cecelia, so my body fought hard to protect her while she was in my womb. Thankfully, she was born healthy and is thriving! 

The only thing I have ever known is that I was meant to be a mother. I was blessed with being a bonus mom to two amazing girls, and then I was blessed again with a biological child of my own; one that I thought was not going to be in the cards for me after my divorce.

Cecelia is the only thing I ever wanted in life.

My gift from God.

My one love (like the tattoo on my finger)….

I have always told Cecelia: “You are safe with mommy. Mommy will protect you. Mommy will never leave you. Mommy will always come back.” It breaks my heart to know I might not be able to keep those promises that I have been making to her since the day she was born.

There are days I cry, alone, after Cecelia falls asleep for the night. I struggle with the idea of leaving her, when I know how tough life can be sometimes.

Cecelia will need you, all of you, to look out for her, support her, and remind her just how much her mama loves her.

I have turned a corner in my grief process, for the moment at least, to more of a place of acceptance. Once I realized that finding the cancer while there was a medical cure, meant that Cecelia would never have been born, my mind autocorrected to gratitude.

She is a true miracle. I am beyond grateful that her life was created and that I am her mother.

We may not know the reasons for things, but there are reasons. God does not make mistakes.

I have always known that my time would come, but I did not expect it to come so soon. No one did….

From seemingly healthy, to a terminal cancer diagnosis in 9 days. The plot twist of a lifetime.

I think we are all still in shock.

100% of the gofundme donations will be given to Cecelia. As a single mom, her future is what weighs heavily on my heart and soul.

She is so strong, incredibly smart, witty as all heck, and has a heart of gold.

Cecelia is the definition of pure love.

THANK YOU to everyone that has reached out and/or already helped by donating to the first gofundme that was setup so quickly and lovingly by Gillian…

For those of you that are close to me, you know that I have been given an interesting hand thus far in life. Like always, I’ll keep cracking jokes, worry about how you are doing, and keep singing “every little thing, is gonna be alright….”

Love you

Karen