Live tomorrow today.. No promises it will be there

Wouldn’t life be great if we knew when things would end or we knew ahead of time to plan

for the unknown?

I have just been given the biggest task of all. I have to fight for my life. A series of tests and scans revealed the outcome everyone hates. Advanced cancer, esophageal, stomach etc. I can’t tell you how I feel as I walk around all day with tears in my eyes thinking how did this happen. I have no idea on the future except it is about to get rough. Chemo, radiation and surgeries. One thing you should know about me is although I am scared and worried that my time with loved ones might be taken away…. I can fight like hell! Please, PLEASE, don’t stop bringing you dogs ( babes) here, because if you do that I guess you want me to give up and do nothing. I have had several horrible Dr’s here but yesterday was given the break I needed. MD Anderson is one of the best Cancer Hospitals in the USA and it is right here in Texas. I have a fantastic Dr, and one of my care team ( Charles ) said don’t worry I am in great hands.

My first appointment is on the 23rd and for 3-5 days I will do tests and scans and meet all involved in my care. My confidence has lifted.

Now my other worry is money. These Dr’s are the best but they are expensive. We all know how our wonderful insurance barely covers a thing. It hasn’t so far and I have seen 10k just fly out of my purse and I haven’t even started on the “BIG” things. I never ask for help, I will usually go without and be content. This time I have to as it doesn’t get anymore serious. I am not forcing or saying “Give me your money”, I am asking if you have a couple of dollars to help me buy my life, then I would so much appreciate it. I was about to say this is the worst thing I have had to do, ask for money. It didn’t take me long to realize that Cancer and death are a whole lot worse.

Most of all I want you yo pray, send thoughts, write words of encouragement and promise not to forget who I am. I am scare and frightened and I hope that doesn’t seem weak. I am about to put my big girl pants on and fight.

Thank you

Sue, Suzanne or Mrs P (Puppets)