Revisions [Surgery]

I lost over 380 lbs! Yes, pounds! (Or 170 kg!) But now I am heavily burdened with revision costs after having corrective surgeries that didn't go as planned. Nothing was covered by insurance it was considered cosmetic.

An hour-long ambulance ride as well as emergency surgery due to a hematoma was thankfully covered. (A bulb got clotted and backed up inside me.)

My name is Amanda, and I am 36 years old.

I am now slightly botched. Not on purpose, but in medical unforeseen circumstances that caused my skin to be extra elastic. Yes, it's the SAME surgeon. I trust his best interest and mine.

I don't know how else to word this and I need extra funds to support the following repairs (currently minus the legs as I could have that done under insurance, but no word back yet):

Remove widened scars from leaking fluid out of my thighs, remove leftover skin that was used as flaps to secure my other tissues in place, and remove leftover surgery mishaps/unforeseen circumstances that caused excess skin to drape over my knees. I now have what looks like a mass above both of my knees. Fix the one arm that healed abnormally compared to the other. Fix my upper torso that now has what looks like two extra breasts under my breasts due to skin/tissue elasticity. The extra bulk of stretched skin on one side due to bleeding in my torso for 10 hours. (Emergency room and emergency surgery.) This caused stretching of the skin on my right side and it is lopsided because of healing and having to allow for swelling. During that time I was unable to wear a binder. I also have many wide scars due to all this that are WEAK and indented in some areas and require repair. (Basically bringing the skin closer together.) A lot of them hurt if touched or pushed on.

 

In 2013 I weighed 635 lbs. I started keto and I was losing weight. Throughout the journey, I was able to finally lose weight with little to no issue.

I hit my first goal weight of 225 lbs in 2016! - Sustained and started my corrective surgeries in 2020. 

Here's the thing...

I grew extremely mentally alone. Honestly, sad about what I became.. and my entire self is now something else over the years. Now I am this. And I'm quite disappointed. I had to tell myself to stop being devastated many times. I did this for quality of life, not to get enhanced physically. None of this is glamour.

I would love to see myself go further. After multiple surgeries already I know I can get there, but I don't have the funds.

 

I need help paying for my surgical revisions. It's an hour away from me and I believe this doctor will satisfy my surgical body needs. He has done my previous surgeries and I don't feel I can trust another with the rest of the work. The cost is terrifying.. the anxiety that my grandparents want to give me the world by thinking of putting a loan on the house. I can't even begin to accept that. I'm not.

 

I'm a nonworking disabled woman and I would eventually love to change that too! I am pretty level-headed and logical. I still try to inspire others, create daily, and give when I can.

 

I hope this finds you in some lovely light thank you for reading, regardless of the future. Keep being a good soul. You are still a human, just like everyone and myself. If this spoke to you somehow, please don't hesitate to ask me questions. Contact me. I am genuinely trying to find help in progressing my quality of life.

 

I want to reassure you I am trying to figure out life and become comfortable in my skin while inspiring and helping others. It's hard to be selfless and ask for something. I always feel paying it forward is the way to go. I just want to push my limit in life to make sure I can give back the best I can.

 

I would also like to regain my mental health due to all this misaligned fortune. I've been working on this.

 

The cost is a bit over the fund amount. According to my surgeon, it will all be a "one-and-done" revision of multiple areas (full thighs, full calves, upper body, upper arms and above the knees), and it SHOULD be my final surgery. He has even gone the extra step and reduced some of the costs to support the unforeseen circumstances in which my body had reacted the way it has.

 

Kind regards,

Amanda (Aka Goat)