Rent & Electricity

My name is dj vortivask and I'm struggling to make ends meet in today's world. I currently owe National Grid over $600 and am very close to having my electricity shut off at the end of the month. I also owe my landlord over $1000 in rent for this month and partial past-due bills, and they've threatened eviction on multiple occasions. I recently lost my roommate in the middle of last month, who was able to help provide a small amount in rent whenever they could (usually between $200-300 a month) but did not offer any assistance towards utilities. On top of that, I never received payment for their last month being here and don't expect to see that money any time soon.

I feel as though once the National Grid bill is cleared up and most of what I owe the landlord, I'll be able to get the reset I need to get things back in order. My weekly work checks clock in at barely over $450 and I've been struggling to pick up extra hours whenever possible. I am also unable to receive benefits - like food stamps - as I make too much in my state's eyes.

I do not know what I am doing and I feel very gross making something like this as I feel as though the money should go to those less fortunate than I. My crippling anxiety/depression makes asking for help much harder than necessary - the stubbornness notwithstanding. But I'm currently between a rock and a hard place and, to be quite honest, I'm very scared for my future in its current state. But, I know I am capable of making proper payments once the backlog is cleared up.

$1.5k is enough to cover National Grid and most of what the landlord is asking for. I'll try to cover the rest if/when I can.