In loving memory of Darren D'Souza

Hi. My name is Bev. I started this fundraising campaign to get to England to attend my fiancé's funeral and memorial. I had to get to England as fast as I could. Now expenses are piling up and being incurred and I don't have the financial capabilities to pay for any of this. Each day it's something new. I need help.

Thirteen years ago, I met a man on the internet. He lived in England. It turned out that he was a really great man. Funny, warm, huge personality, loyal. If you ever met him, you would say the same. He would give the shirt off his back for the people he cared about. He was selfless. We became inseparable. A day hasn't gone by that we haven't seen each other in some form. Most days it was Skype, others it was just texts back and forth. I managed to be with him IRL with the help of a small miracle. His home became my home whenever I crossed the "pond". He was and always will be the love of my life.

Eleven years ago we had a scare of a lifetime. He landed in the hospital in with heart failure. He was in there for 2 weeks and that was so difficult to go through. But he made it out. And I am ever so grateful that he did. His ICD gave me eleven more years with him.

Yesterday I was worried because I hadn't heard from him for over a day and that was so unlike him. He never missed the chance to let me know he was okay. I managed to contact some of his friends to go and check on him. It turns out, I was right to be scared, worried, concerned, antsy.

Today, I was phoned by mutual friends in England. He passed away. My heart is so broken that I don't know if I will recover from this. But my problem now is I don't have the funds to keep paying expenses in England. He has wishes that need to be fulfilled and I have promises to him that need to be kept. I can't go back on my word to him. I need to help his friends and cousins see that his wishes are met. He thought he had more time. I thought he had more time. But he didn't. I need to be here. For his friends, for his cousins, for him.

Please help me while in England to get his affairs in order. To make sure his pets are where they need to be. To hug our little dog with the possibility of relocating her to my home her in the United States. My life is never going to be the same again. I only hope that I can do what is right. To do what is necessary.