Donate to Give a Veteran a Loving Companion Dog

When I was 25 I started living a fairy tail life. I found a girl fell in love after one date married her and a child with her and stayed with her 38 years until she passed away in March 2019. I've tried reinventing myself several times since her passing but nothing comes close to feeling the void. You see even though we were married a long time we still held hands in the car we still do each other kisses across the room when we made eye contact with each other I adore her and most importantly I enjoyed being loved by her back this is the problem. I live the last 40 years with the love of a beautiful woman I have family and friends but I guess it was all a lie. Because within a couple days after her death everything in my life died as well they all left within a few days not one person on this planet would care about me openly. And within a year after my wife died both our dogs died as well. I tried going to the VA trying to get funding to get myself a little French bulldog should be a companion friend someone that would love me back but then I quit yes it was made clear that I could never jump through all the hoops before I died for before I got a dog whichever came first. If I got a seeing eye dog because I'm also going blind one I can't afford to feed a big dog and two believe it or not you have to have two or three people that will say what a wonderful person you are as references I don't have anybody. And I can't afford $100 a month and food for a dog when I don't get that much money for food for me. I have the finances to have pet insurance by the dog top quality human great food give it a home love shelter I can take care of his veterinary I just don't have five grand approximately if I myself what I want which is a small companion dog. I've checked for my needs would be a French bulldog or the papillon yo-chow, my last dog was a yorkie poo and as much as I love her to death sometimes I just couldn't afford to have her groomed as often as I should have I don't need a dog with hair fur just fine. Because it has to be a purebred either this has to be small no hair good natured puppy. Thank you for listening to my story

I've been a Christian all my life so there's absolutely no danger of my army myself I just have to wait for the Lord to let me come home and if that means sitting in a bedroom waiting to die she'll be his will and I don't believe he wants me to die without any love in my life whatsoever. I thought I knew it what loneliness meant but I didn't loneliness is not a definition it's a feeling it's an emotion it's an emptiness to think of 5 billion people on the planet and not one of them know your name except for bill collectors and people that want your money for other reasons. Since 2019 I haven't had a personal email phone call personal email personal anything. Birthdays forget it Christmas forget it any kind of celebration forget it hearing my name with and I love you next to it something my wife and I did all the time. I have tried contacting the veterans administration hoping that they could help me find a companion dog and even though their hearts are in a good place there's no way I could live long enough to jump through all the hoops to get the help I need. Even if I were to get a scene a dog because I'm also losing my sight I have to have two or three people willing to write a letter saying what a wonderful person I am and how they've seen me raise my dogs in the past I don't have anybody on the planet that would do that. So that kills that I try to check any animal shelters cuz I don't care about the purebred but mainly they had chihuahuas or dogs with hair and an apartment neither one of them is going to work. I've researched it I think of French bulldog or a papillon or Yorkie something like that. I never asked for anything from anybody in my life I figured if I couldn't afford it I just didn't need it. It's 68 become a shut in in a bedroom that's taught me that there can be such a thing as hell on Earth. Not to worry being a Christian I'll never hurt myself I just wait on the Lord take me home or give me a reason to stay.