DONATE TO HELP ME TO SURVIVE UNTIL FEBRUARY

Hi, my name is Clay and I’m raising money to survive and grab onto at least something :,)

I’m a 19 year old trans man with dissociative seizures and other mental illnesses like ADHD, BPD, and OCD - I constantly feel like a vegetable. Working for me is very difficult and i can only last 20 minutes or an hour while doing something ( It usually depends on how intense the work and people are because I’m very sensitive.) Medication doesn’t help me, they mostly make me sleepy which is something I DON’T need to happen while I’m at work.

I left my parents apartment to live alone, since living with 3 loud people in the house was very difficult and caused me to feel anxiety which then lead me to have more seizures. Since me and my brother used to share a room we’d constantly argue with each other, and I don’t have a great history with my step-dad either.

My parents and my brother are all are homophobic and transphobic which makes me feel self conscious about myself and how I look, it also makes me feel unsafe, which again, leads me to have seizures due to overthinking which I already struggle with due to OCD.

I’ve talked with my mother about how I feel and my inability to work jobs normal people do - I was ignored, as if I have to suck it up and do it. They do help me pay monthly rent, water, and electric bills but won’t be able to help me when winter comes. My dad makes 1400€ and my mom makes 800€. My mom pays monthly rent and bills for their apartment, which doesn’t cost a lot now since its September, but around winter she pays almost 500€ for everything and has medical issues to pay too. Meanwhile my dad pays around 220€ for the apartment and his medical bills since he is disabled, he also pays for my brothers computer which is around 100€, and the phone bill that reaches 200€ since he pays monthly for his and my moms phones and watches — around winter time he’d have to pay 400€ - 500€ plus those extra bills.

I’ve tried to work in the past, from July 22nd until August 15th but it turned into something physically painful. I would try to hold my seizures in, which then lead me to have breakdowns at work because of how much pain I was in - my legs would shake, I felt like I was gonna throw up and my head hurt and by the time I’d come back home the pain would worsen. I wouldn’t be able to walk and freeze on my bed, my legs would shake even if I was laying down on the couch or bed and I would be in pain, the migraines would not go away.

I’ve tried to sort this out with many psychiatrists but they don’t help me at all, they don’t know what’s wrong and don’t even try to find ways to help me which is typical in country that has the highest suicide rate and denies mental health as a real issue.

Soon, I’m going to the mental hospital for the 4th time to get more answers and possibly a disability card for my dissociative seizures. In the meantime, I need some money for clothes and food for me and my cat to survive at home, since I barely have anything and my parents do not understand or care that I cannot properly work.

I don’t wanna end up in the hospital in worse conditions and I don’t wanna go back to my parents so please help me out as much as you can, even if only a little bit :,)

Money will go to dental care, food, clothes, helping my parents pay for my apartment so I could stay where I feel safe, taxi and busses to get to the hospital.

I am from Lithuania but since this app doesn’t let me set my location to Lithuania the money will go to my boyfriend who lives in UK and then safely transferred to me.

Thank you.