Donate to Help Robert Overcome Hardship

Alright, this may be long-winded, but I know some of you out there wonder, and if you know me, like really know me and not just my very public drag persona, you know I tend to keep things to myself, even when I'm struggling. So now it's time to get vulnerable. And if you have something negative to say about this, keep it to yourself, please, because that would be the reason I've felt discouraged to even make this post.

So about 3 months ago, I lost my job, the job that has brought me to Hawaii in the first place. After working 3.5 years for someone, they decided to change the business from short-term rentals to long-term rentals (due to laws and things changing with the zoning on the island), dissolving my position as a property/Airbnb manager. I try not to hold any anger towards this because I do understand her reasoning. However, I was told with less than a month to figure things out. What gets me is that this decision was obviously something thought about for a while before making it happen, yet they only told me once everything was already in the works and gave me less than a month's time to figure out my next move.

I found a place to move my things and myself, but after a very short stay with someone I thought was a friend and wanted to help, I realized they had wanted more from me than I was willing to give. In turn, I had a few weeks again to find my next place.

Luckily, I did and am happy with my new living situation. I am very grateful to them for stepping in and giving me a safe place to rest my head and store my things without making me feel like I owe more than rent to them.

However, I'm still currently unemployed. I have put in applications to multiple places and have offered my services and hands to anyone I've come across to make extra funds by doing odd jobs: landscaping, yard work, cleaning, building, etc. Helping when I could and where I could, however I could. Unfortunately, I've come across a few people who have taken my bad situation for granted and have either made promises for jobs that never happened or seemed to have lied and cast me aside, leaving me in a place where many times I've felt like truly giving up. I have tried and am trying to stay positive and keep the faith that things will change and begin to get better, but I've now exhausted my options and have no one else to reach out to, which is where I find myself now. With rent due in days and bills backed up and stacking now, I'm beginning to feel desperate but also scared of what will happen. I feel like this is my last option, and I'm hoping the kindness of my friends or anyone who sees this may be able to help. I am not just asking for a handout, as I would like to feel justified for any help offered my way. So if there's anything I can do as a repayment or a thank you, or a job needed done, I am more than willing to do so. Maybe you have a costume party coming up, or a photoshoot for you or a loved one, or a kid graduating or attending prom or homecoming and need makeup application done. I'd be more than willing to beat some mugs. Maybe you have yard work needed done or help cleaning and organizing? (I'm a true Virgo and get a kick from seeing things neat and orderly.) Maybe you just need an extra set of hands or muscle to move things or just get things done? There's not much I'm not willing to do, and I'm a quick learner for things I may not know. Or maybe you just have the means and feel the need to help.

The funds would help me ensure rent for the next few months while I continue to job hunt as well as find a car to get me around, as living here is hard without a vehicle.

If you've made it this far, I thank you for taking the time to read. If you are able to help, I am forever grateful, and if you can't, I understand too. It's hard out there for everyone, I know, but I also know that in the past, I have tried to help anyone I could. I have raised money for organizations, I have donated my time, my art, and my heart to many without expecting in return. But I am now in need of help, and I'm hoping there are people out there willing to do so. And if you have read this and find it funny or you've rolled your eyes and think you are better than this, then count yourself lucky, and I hope you never have to feel this much fear, constant worry, and dread of what might happen! And if you can help or do donate, I say thank you! And one day, I hope to be able to pay you back somehow. Hawaii is my home, and I can't imagine not being here. Help me make sure that I can stay!

If you'd rather donate directly, my CashApp and Venmo are both available as well:

CashApp: $RTLCKM88

Venmo: @RobertwiththeKarizma