Eating Disorder Hospitalization Fund

hi i’m spade. i’ve been battling an eating disorder for 5 years now and have recently developed severe panic disorder. during this 5 years i’ve experienced sexual assault, being robbed and held at gun point and back to back unsafe living situations. i’ve attempted to get the help i need but financial struggles, time and burnout have made it very hard for me to want to keep going. my two disorders (among other mental and bodily struggles) feed off of each other and make the other worse. malnutrition wreaks so much physical and mental havoc on the body. it’s difficult for me to exert much physical or verbal energy, the muscles in my body weakened from taking nutrients where it can find them. my panic attacks last for days at a time and make it incredibly hard to get sufficient sleep which is needed for physical body repair. my brain’s memory has decreased significantly and i’m always weary of the potential for fainting as well. if i continue like this there is potential for permanent damage in all functions of my body. this fear paralyzes me as i am not equipped to fix this on my own. after assessments with EDCare, an eating disorder facility, it was decided that the level of care i need to get better is hospitalization at the facility. in order to do this i would have to quit my job and still find a way to pay my rent and bills until i can return home in a few months. please help me to enter the level of care i need to begin living a healthy and safe life. i have had a few recent breaking points to where i feel as if my only option is end my pain permanently and i’m very worried about my own safety and will to keep going. anything at all helps, i am in deep need.

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